Cutstuff Sanctuary

[Beed28]

May as well.

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The truth is, I can easily get frustrated while playing video games. I often play on the easiest difficulty level whenever possible, or use cheat codes, or spam save states or rewinds if they're available. I also tend to use infinite ammo in FPS games whenever possible.

[Kapus]

"Gender identity is a person's private sense, and subjective experience, of their own gender. This is generally described as one's private sense of being a man or a woman, consisting primarily of the acceptance of membership into a category of people: male or female."

basically this means your internal sense of being and what gender you feel you are (eg. "heck yeah i feel like boy")

of course you'll have people fall outside the "male-female" spectrum ("you know i dont feel like i'm either boy or girl, or maybe im both and yadda yadda")

Right, that's kinda why I like to refer to myself as an it sometimes, aside from being a stupid running joke.

I am a male, as most people know, but I tend to associate myself with more feminine characters and traits more often than masculine ones (e.g. 90% of the avatars I use on this site and others are of female characters, and when given a choice in a video game, I usually play as a female player character). My internet persona is also feminine in appearance, although I refer to it as a male or asexual out of habit. I don't really care what people call me.


This isn't a DEEP DARK SECRET or anything though, I just wanted to chip in.

[Max]

I am a pretty princess and I will be offended if you refer to me as anything else

[MusashiAA]

I tend to associate myself with more feminine characters and traits more often than masculine ones.

I can't blame you for that, I think girls are cooler than boys myself.

[Geno]

what.

Now I don't feel like a total weirdo now!

yay!

[CHAOS_FANTAZY]

To be deathly honest, I think society should ditch the connotations about what is "MANNLY" and what is "girly~" to begin with.  It's only giving us more excuses to segregate one another.  Who really cares?  If you need to insult a disreputable someone, honestly look at their character and find their undesirable traits.  It's not that hard.

I don't have very exciting confessions, but I'll spill my heart on the table anyway.  I'm not sure if I've ever even told this story, but I will now.  As a young'in, I was...stupid, put bluntly.  Stupid and foolish and ANGRY ALL THE TIME.  I used to get angry at everything; I was the most frustratable person ever.  Look at me funny?  I'll swing at you.  Bad grade back?  Tear up the paper.  Say something snarky?  I won't miss with the swing.  Hit me?  Why, I'd tackle you to the ground and bury my teeth in your arm.  I was assigned to two different therapists at once, it was so bad.  Of course, I was too dumb to know the solution was to not care until much later.  At that stage in my life, I was just so angry and frustrated with life that I had no motivation to do anything.  Why bother getting out of bed and going to school and doing my work and inevitably getting pissed and punching some guy and getting in trouble for it?  There were no friends for me to talk to, nothing fun for me to do (Since I was banned from fun things due to being such a problem), and, of course, from my point of view, "NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME BAW TEEN ANGST".  Glad I got that out of the way in my preteen years.
Anyway, I eventually found a good therapist who did understand me, and put me back on the right track.  You got the tail end of my childish rage and stupidity, and I'd say I turned out to be a pretty okay individual.

As far as modern-day flaws go, the one that bothers me the most is...I'm a scaredy-cat and I'm totally ashamed of it.  I've been painfully susceptible to jump-scares since childhood and that's not changed at all.  I get "scared" in the conventional sense so easily that I refuse to see horror movies, play horror games, and otherwise get into scary situations.  Once I've gone through a scary situation, I file it under "CAN" or "CAN'T," and if it's "CAN," I get used to it, and it alone doesn't scare me anymore (Which is why I don't roll around on the floor screaming incomprehensibly every time I play GvHNES).  If it's "CAN'T," I avoid contact with it at all costs.  For a long time, River Twygz Bed has been a "CAN'T" for me, ever since I made the fatal mistake of going down into the bed at, like, one in the morning.  If I'm seriously unnerved though I get reminded of everything that's ever scared me before and it's like a big old ugly nightmare monster and aaaaaagh
So yeah
I'm a chicken

[Jatea]

I just feel empty most of the time and then the rest of the time I'm just ok
I can laugh but then I just shut up right after

good thing I have multiple pairs of... recovered scissors

[Spikeboy]

i'm secretly madly in love with gumballtoid

[Gumballtoid]

Things are okay for me



Except for the fact that I've got nobody to talk to during the school day so I just retreat into my shellballtoid and shut the hell up

And then come home to a brother that treats me like utter shit for seemingly no reason

Most of my pleasures come from the computer or anything else with buttons and a backlight, otherwise I'm feeling pretty lousy most of the time



I should exercise more

[MusashiAA]

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I feel like I'm part of a select few that aren't underage on this forum every time someone decides to go on an angsty teen rant.

[Balrog]

Well this thread got interesting fast.

Still not sure if whydee is trolling or not though.

I find this thread to be a profoundly bad idea. First, basing something off Reddit is automatically a bad idea in my opinion, since Reddit is Exhibit A for "the internet makes you stupid." Second, the Internet is the worst possible place for life counseling. Plenty of news stories about that, though this comes to mind immediately.

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I feel like I'm part of a select few that aren't underage on this forum every time someone decides to go on an angsty teen rant.

I know how you feel.

[MusashiAA]

I think this topic should go in this fashion: people come here to get something off their chest about themselves, while those who wish to comment on such things do so as long as shit doesn't even gain the necessary momentum to hit the fan.

EDIT: Although I have to admit that the fan in question is pretty much at butthole level with this topic.

why do i keep making scat metaphors

[ZeStopper]

I am a pretty princess and I will be offended if you refer to me as anything else

No, you are a frog princess.

Anyway, I find myself doing pull-ups on my dad's pull-up bar.
I am working out in a way.

[Kapus]

I think this topic should go in this fashion: people come here to get something off their chest about themselves, while those who wish to comment on such things do so as long as shit doesn't even gain the necessary momentum to hit the fan.

That's basically the direction it has been going in so far. Nobody has yet to come here for actual counseling as far as I can tell; they're just venting or sharing little facts.

So no worries.

[Awbawlisk]

I should probably get this off my chest...

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I hate sports, I REALLY HATE SPORTS! Especially fucking Football and Basketball. I'm sorry, everyday my Father is all about, "You should really get into a sport like Basketball or Football, get active and compete!"Every Saturday my dad has to get me up at 6 in the morning in order to force me to play basketball with a bunch of people over 30. My father is always talking behind my back on Facebook about how I'm all this and all that and that I have lots of fun playing. Well, I DON'T! Sure, I may be very good at basketball, but its not my favorite sport, and like I said, I really don't like any sports. I was on the Cross Country Team for 2 years and it was an unenjoyable experience. As a matter of fact, High School itself is a pretty unenjoyable experience... Its just, nobody at my school shares my interests, and everyone is at a set group (popular kids) to where I can't converse with any of them without it being awkward, due to the fact that I love to do stuff with my life differently; I do what makes me comfortable. I could just hardly imagine how bad College will probably be in terms of sociability... (Roommates...)

As much as I try to get it through my father's skull that I just don't want to play as it is something I really don't want to do, he just becomes a mad man and does/says anything in the world he can in order to hurt my feelings and put me down. Even worse, since my parents have been divorced for the 5TH TIME, it has been like 2 years and my father still hasn't gotten over the fact that my mother moved on, and everyday when I speak with my mother after school, he has to come in and get all in my business about a simple phone call from my mom asking me "How my day at school was." I really get tired of that question... Don't you? Anyways, Back on the topic of my father, ever since I quit the Cross Country Team the 2nd week of my Junior year, it has only gotten worse!

I ask myself this every night, "Why can't my dad just stop pestering me everyday about sports, clubs (I'm already in a club), partys, my neighborhood, etc. I exercise and do chores everyday and help you with grandmother (She has been suffering from Alzhiemers for quite the while now), why won't you leave me alone about this bullshit? Give me a fucking break; I just don't care! This is me! WHY CAN'T YOU EXCEPT ME FOR WHO I FUCKING AM?" I'm not fucking a weirdo, a wimp, a gay guy, or a shut in (okay maybe I am...). I'm just different! I have different opinions, interests, motives, etc. I'm not going to waste any more of time being changed into something I'm not. I love who I am and I just wish my father could stop being an asshole and accept it.

Y'know, the whole tl;dr business really destroys the point of this topic greatly... Just look at CHAOS' ultra long rant. Did anybody else bother to read the entire thing? (I actually did and I really don't blame him) So, just in case you really don't want to read my sorry rant, I'll just put this in a nutshell.

I'm just a different guy with different interests and different views towards life, and if you nobody can accept it, then just leave me the fuck alone.