Aww man... you guys are real inspirational, you know that? Normally I'm a very tl:dr kind of guy, but I read every post for the past five or six pages or so. Touching stuff, everyone!
I don't honestly have much of a story myself, to be honest. Though I'll try, even with the probable lack of feels I'm able to dish out.
Well, when I joined these forums, I had no idea I'd meet as many cool and colourful characters as I have done. Let alone actually befriend them! I came for the Megamen and stayed for you guys, it seems.
Unbeknownst to most people, I'm actually really shy, boring and dim in real life, especially due to my closet mental disability.
But whenever I'm here, either in game or on the forum, I can't help but relax and be way more open and less of a wallflower. It's quite confidence boosting, really!
Anyways, sure I acted like a bit of an attention whore
(which I still am in a way, I won't deny it), but for the most part, everything was quite fine really.
...That is, until around the V2D(?) expansion days, and I started to have problems with the game not being able to run, due to my bulging skin folder. After that, I ragequit for pretty much a year or so. Not out of malice, but out of... I dunno, a mix of things really. None of which I can really remember. Aside from the fact that the game was borked, of course.
Might have been pride in retrospect, not wanting to shrink my folder's contents and all, but yeah.
During the time I was away, life began to get real stressful: with College deadlines (with me not knowing how to do most of the IT work, at that), girlfriend troubles, slowly dropping my pastimes, passive aggressive family issues, and a general lack of self-worth. And while things have been getting better since then, with me passing college (barely), and patching things up with my gf, some things still remain to this day. With added pressure to go to work on top of it. Fun stuff!
The only reason all of this didn't make me go mad from hurp in 2013-onwards is because that's when I came back through the pearly gates known as this place. I actually feel as if I have a place to belong to here, with people to actually talk to and laugh with. It's a grand old place, and it makes me feel less alienated from life! So much so that I'm slowly becoming my old, cheery self again.
I mean of course, without mentioning any names or groups, there are the odd few who make mean comments towards content creators, other fandoms, and sometimes even each other over petty things, but overall, there's no community of people I'd rather be with than Cutstuff! And oddly enough, it's those sorts of before-mentioned types that may have made me into a much more accepting, appreciative individual. So in a way, I'm glad of those folks too!
Honestly, I do wish I could talk to you guys more outside of the game, because I get the feeling we'd get along pretty well, but I am still honestly super socially awkward despite everything.
Way less so than I was when I first joined this place, granted, but still, I can get real shy real fast. I always feel paranoid that I'm gonna annoy whoever I'm chatting with, as is usually the case with me irl.
So I'm sorry I never try to strike up a conversation with you guys! Lord knows I want to, but you know how it is. Always the topic ender, never the topic starter.
Well, and with that, I'm done being depressing. Congratulations, Accel, for making almost everyone on the forum confess to their feelings more than anything I've ever seen before.
Um, I did answer the question properly, didn't I? If not, then
tl;dr: Cutstuff made me less of a hurpderp over the years.
Alrighty then, guys, tata for now!
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