1 year later huh? Seems like just a few days ago.
I never thought it would have happened, but it did. The person who I never thought would forgive me ended up doing so, completely out of the blue. Do you think dreams come true? Because
this is now bridging the gap between dreams and reality. I was amazed that not only that, but I was sworn into moderation on the unofficial 8BDM discord server. The one that I was banned from because I was shrouded in a cloud of hatred and pride. The cloud had cleared long enough for me to be able to keep my cool in bad situations. More or less, I've cleaned up a few bad messes in the chatrooms, and really helped make it more welcoming to people than what it was when I first joined. My dream was to be respected among the community, and what I thought I had to do was be a part of the main game's development team. In reality, all I had to do was be a good person. And at the end of day, it doesn't matter how good your art is, or how many medals you have.
Ever hear the term "if you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours."?
That doesn't mean you should throw a 100 dollar bill in a paper shredder because it'll magically reappear. But I mean like, if someone doesn't want to talk to you because you hurt them, you should leave them alone. If they decide they'll be your friend again, that means they've given you another chance, another opportunity to change. The difference between me and other people who were banned from the server (or cutstuff in general) is that I learned from my deeds. I made sure not to do them again, and learned
why it's wrong to do those things.
It's been a whole year since my father (stepfather turned out) had passed away. Things have not been going better or worse since then. I guarantee you he would have been much worse off if he had been alive to see this pandemic. Either he would have been too paranoid to go outside, or he would have not worn a mask because it bothered his face (which is somewhat understandable). I just know that he would have come home with the virus and proceeded to spread it to my mother and I. I honestly don't think I would have survived a case of it, my body is extremely weak as is (haven't visited a doctor in a year). I never learned how to drive, and my mom has a lot of phobias surrounding being able to do things. I can't blame her for it, because it's a real serious thing. I'd be able to tell if she was faking it, because my dad was like that a lot. My sister came over just today and asked to move in, this is a huge benefit to both of us because we have an escort to places like the big grocery store or a doctor's office, or anywhere really. They weren't nice to me when I was a kid, but that was just their teenage attitude shining. I can trust them as much as a best friend now, even if sometimes they ramble on about themselves too much. Believe me, what they did was not unforgivable.
I shouldn't feel uncomfortable for being openly bisexual, everyone I know is ok with it. I even told my mom and she was apathetic about it (better than nothing right?). You see the problem is that there are in fact people on this planet who think that my orientation is "more privileged" because I'm attracted to both men and women (and NB people of course). If I were to be with a woman out on a pride parade, there would be someone saying "what's a straight couple doing here?" if I was not wearing any flags (I would anyway tho). I thought LGBT was supposed to be accepting of each other? Instead, you have these TERF lesbians who run around saying that killing all men will solve the world's problems, and they blame abused women on their attraction to men (this includes bi women). I'd hate to hear what they'd say about bisexual men. Oh wait that's right, they're misogynist because they're attracted to women. I don't need to say "not all men", however, these "misandrists" think they can run around saying shit like "all men are pedophiles" like they're self riotous and anyone who calls them out on it is "part of the problem". Like I don't care if someone dislikes men because of their history with them, but them going around making it their entire fucking personality and unironically identifying themselves as a hateful person, then that makes them no better than those Reddit "nice guys".
The lesson here? Don't shroud yourself with hatred. When I was younger, I was bullied by tall people because I'm short. Does that mean I can go around saying "all tall people should be executed because they hurt me in the past"? No, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't call out bullying when you see it happening in front of you.
Oh and ACAB is different because people aren't born police officers, they become them. They choose to become oppressors by their own will. The concept of police are not to inherently solve problems, but to enforce laws that the area they live in. Do you think if facial hair was illegal, they'd be handcuffing people who have mustaches and beards because they couldn't afford to shave? I guarantee that's what would happen.
One more thing, please wear your masks. That's all I'm asking for.
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