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Title: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: CDRom11_2007 on October 26, 2013, 03:18:34 AM
I know this is a weird thing to make but, for some reason, I feel it is necessary. As someone who enjoys psychology, and studying humanistic behavior, I realized something which is probably the reason why we, as a community, are so close, we all wish for something more in our life. Admit it, you have at least some one thing going on which you know has or will leave a huge scar in your life. This new topic is for anyone brave enough to just come out and say it. Just remember, we are all a community, there are the good people and there are the bad people, but there are always those who care. And, probably the most important rule to state, what happens in Cutstuff, stays in Cutstuff. Let's learn to respect each other's privacy.



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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: XJ9 on October 26, 2013, 03:23:28 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on October 26, 2013, 03:33:37 AM
ok..... here i go......

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on October 26, 2013, 03:47:23 AM
Is this supposed to be like one of those reddit confessional subforums?

I don't know if I'm supposed to freely come out and speak my mind about the community, or just confess a deep and dark secret of mine to the community.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on October 26, 2013, 04:15:52 AM
I like eggplants. They taste good with pasta and lots of cheese.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Galactan on October 26, 2013, 04:49:14 AM
I distrust people who attempt to get me to reveal my secrets when I barely know anything about them.  Try again later.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ZeStopper on October 26, 2013, 05:56:12 PM
Prepare for the worst...


I am vengeance!

I am the night!

I am darkness!

I Am Batman!



Joking aside, I don't really get this thread.
How is it gonna ruin our lives?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Awbawlisk on October 26, 2013, 06:40:32 PM
Quote from: "ZeStopper"
Joking aside, I don't really get this thread.
How is it gonna ruin our lives?

Quote from: "XJ9"
I am god.

My life has already been ruined...
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Colonel ServBot on October 26, 2013, 06:52:54 PM
Umm, okay guys...  I have a confession to make... I... I...
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On a much more serious note, I don't really like this thread. So.... I mean, not alot of people would come clean with an evil murder secret on an INTERNET FORUM, where EVERYONE can read it. Just sayin'. I mean, employers kinda check peoples internet forum profiles and stuff and I don't think talking about the evil things we all do will help us get a job. But thats my opinion, please continue now, nothing to see here. Except for that bloody knife with Servbot finger prints sitting next to a corpse.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Max on October 26, 2013, 07:42:25 PM
I know everyone's been making jokes about this but I guess I'll be the first to use it seriously

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Tengu on October 27, 2013, 01:02:30 AM
Quote from: "Colonel ServBot"
... kinda love you guys, you guys rock! best forum ever! lol


I love you too bby <3
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ZeStopper on October 27, 2013, 02:16:20 AM
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So that makes you Maxilla?

Or Maxine?

I dunno?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on October 27, 2013, 02:34:52 AM
Maxwell.

Milla Maxwell.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Colonel ServBot on October 27, 2013, 02:56:59 AM
Um... well... I have more confessions to make... sadly, most of 'em are not real... don't hate me.... ;(

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Thats all I can say.... FOR NOW! [/anticlimacticending]
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on October 27, 2013, 03:25:37 AM
Quote from: "Kapus"
Maxwell.

Milla Maxwell.

Now that has to be a joke.

Alright, let's try this:

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Deviddo on October 27, 2013, 03:54:51 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ZeStopper on October 27, 2013, 04:51:15 AM
Quote from: "Colonel ServBot"
There is a small amount of humans I like, these consist of Keiji Inafune, Akira Kitamura, Avril Lavigne, All of Blink 182, New_Female, ZeStopper, the CSZ Cast, Eminem(aka the badass rapper), Brian Lee O'malley, and only a bit more. And CutStuff is safe since most of us aren't even human.
I agree with everything.


My favorite people are Bob Marley (May his soul rest in peace), Me, Batman, All of CutStuff buddies, Morgan Freeman, Snoop Dog, Will Smith, and Johnny Depp.

Woot.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on October 27, 2013, 06:13:53 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Max on October 27, 2013, 10:14:58 AM
Max can be a girl's name too
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on October 27, 2013, 02:10:13 PM
Maxine's a girls name, so yeah.

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Deviddo on October 27, 2013, 02:56:47 PM
MaxINE might be a girl's name, but "Max"?  Come on YD, wait till April.  Then you can have your fun.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Max on October 27, 2013, 03:32:50 PM
Max is just a shortening
It could be applied to multiple names beginning with Max
Trust me
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on October 27, 2013, 08:23:49 PM
what. Okay, super true embarrassing fact time! (http://cutstuff.net/molly/DBBKUP/genorollheadblush.png)

You know how sometimes if your nervous, you start shaking?

Like if you are trying real hard not to die in a video game, your hands start shaking?

Well, that happens to me too. Although it's not my hands that tremble in those situations...

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Seriously, of all the body parts my mind could force to tremble in those situations, it HAD to be that one!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on October 27, 2013, 11:33:09 PM
for real

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on October 27, 2013, 11:49:50 PM
I do not mind which pronoun people choose to refer to me to either.

Although I won't go as far as to say I am one of those too...
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Deviddo on October 28, 2013, 07:28:55 AM
Geno, I--huh?
You don't classify yourself as genderless yet you don't mind whatever someone wants to call you?  If it was me, and someone called me the wrong gender, they could expect a foot up their ass.  That brings me to something though.

When I'm not being the best user ever on Cutstuff, I frequently misunderstand my close friends and get super pissed at them for silly things.
Yeah, I'm one of those, "get pissed first, ask questions later," guys.  No, I'm not proud of it.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on October 28, 2013, 11:31:49 AM
what.

Well, if said person did that IN REAL LIFE (In other words, they could see what I really look like), then yes, I'd be ticked, as it'd be pretty obvious which gender I am.

However, if they did that on the internets, where I have never (and will never) posted a image of my actual self, I am okay with it.











You do know that there is a reason why I refer to myself as "The weirdest person I ever knew".
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Deviddo on October 28, 2013, 12:20:15 PM
I didn't know you referred to yourself as such.

But that's the glorious thing about the internet, no one sees what you look like, and sometimes they don't hear what you sound like, so you can get a reputation just off of what you put down as your thoughts instead of silly things like looks and the like.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on October 28, 2013, 01:21:29 PM
well--, if it helps

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on October 28, 2013, 02:04:57 PM
what.

okay then.


*me leaves this topic before I can post anything else I end up regretting later.

EDIT: Actually, thank. Now I feel better about myself.

Another embarrassing thing about me, is that if something is pointed out about either me, or some object I own, that I do not like, I get all depressed about it, until I apply logic, and realize that it's okay.

Heck, that just happened NOW.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Beed28 on October 28, 2013, 04:49:51 PM
May as well.
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on October 28, 2013, 05:44:56 PM
Quote from: "Rui-"
"Gender identity is a person's private sense, and subjective experience, of their own gender. This is generally described as one's private sense of being a man or a woman, consisting primarily of the acceptance of membership into a category of people: male or female."

basically this means your internal sense of being and what gender you feel you are (eg. "heck yeah i feel like boy")

of course you'll have people fall outside the "male-female" spectrum ("you know i dont feel like i'm either boy or girl, or maybe im both and yadda yadda")
Right, that's kinda why I like to refer to myself as an it sometimes, aside from being a stupid running joke.

I am a male, as most people know, but I tend to associate myself with more feminine characters and traits more often than masculine ones (e.g. 90% of the avatars I use on this site and others are of female characters, and when given a choice in a video game, I usually play as a female player character). My internet persona is also feminine in appearance, although I refer to it as a male or asexual out of habit. I don't really care what people call me.


This isn't a DEEP DARK SECRET or anything though, I just wanted to chip in.
Title: Jokes aside I am actually a girl
Post by: Max on October 28, 2013, 05:52:29 PM
I am a pretty princess and I will be offended if you refer to me as anything else
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on October 28, 2013, 06:19:09 PM
Quote from: "Kapus"
I tend to associate myself with more feminine characters and traits more often than masculine ones.

I can't blame you for that, I think girls are cooler than boys myself.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on October 28, 2013, 08:56:38 PM
what.

Now I don't feel like a total weirdo now!

yay!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: CHAOS_FANTAZY on October 28, 2013, 10:00:05 PM
To be deathly honest, I think society should ditch the connotations about what is "MANNLY" and what is "girly~" to begin with.  It's only giving us more excuses to segregate one another.  Who really cares?  If you need to insult a disreputable someone, honestly look at their character and find their undesirable traits.  It's not that hard.

I don't have very exciting confessions, but I'll spill my heart on the table anyway.  I'm not sure if I've ever even told this story, but I will now.  As a young'in, I was...stupid, put bluntly.  Stupid and foolish and ANGRY ALL THE TIME.  I used to get angry at everything; I was the most frustratable person ever.  Look at me funny?  I'll swing at you.  Bad grade back?  Tear up the paper.  Say something snarky?  I won't miss with the swing.  Hit me?  Why, I'd tackle you to the ground and bury my teeth in your arm.  I was assigned to two different therapists at once, it was so bad.  Of course, I was too dumb to know the solution was to not care until much later.  At that stage in my life, I was just so angry and frustrated with life that I had no motivation to do anything.  Why bother getting out of bed and going to school and doing my work and inevitably getting pissed and punching some guy and getting in trouble for it?  There were no friends for me to talk to, nothing fun for me to do (Since I was banned from fun things due to being such a problem), and, of course, from my point of view, "NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME BAW TEEN ANGST".  Glad I got that out of the way in my preteen years.
Anyway, I eventually found a good therapist who did understand me, and put me back on the right track.  You got the tail end of my childish rage and stupidity, and I'd say I turned out to be a pretty okay individual.

As far as modern-day flaws go, the one that bothers me the most is...I'm a scaredy-cat and I'm totally ashamed of it.  I've been painfully susceptible to jump-scares since childhood and that's not changed at all.  I get "scared" in the conventional sense so easily that I refuse to see horror movies, play horror games, and otherwise get into scary situations.  Once I've gone through a scary situation, I file it under "CAN" or "CAN'T," and if it's "CAN," I get used to it, and it alone doesn't scare me anymore (Which is why I don't roll around on the floor screaming incomprehensibly every time I play GvHNES).  If it's "CAN'T," I avoid contact with it at all costs.  For a long time, River Twygz Bed has been a "CAN'T" for me, ever since I made the fatal mistake of going down into the bed at, like, one in the morning.  If I'm seriously unnerved though I get reminded of everything that's ever scared me before and it's like a big old ugly nightmare monster and aaaaaagh
So yeah
I'm a chicken
Title: today is a nice day
Post by: Jatea on October 28, 2013, 10:07:15 PM
I just feel empty most of the time and then the rest of the time I'm just ok
I can laugh but then I just shut up right after

good thing I have multiple pairs of... recovered scissors
Title: does he love me back
Post by: Spikeboy on October 28, 2013, 10:38:07 PM
i'm secretly madly in love with gumballtoid
Title: geht weg
Post by: Gumballtoid on October 28, 2013, 10:40:40 PM
Things are okay for me



Except for the fact that I've got nobody to talk to during the school day so I just retreat into my shellballtoid and shut the hell up

And then come home to a brother that treats me like utter shit for seemingly no reason

Most of my pleasures come from the computer or anything else with buttons and a backlight, otherwise I'm feeling pretty lousy most of the time



I should exercise more
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on October 28, 2013, 10:51:32 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Balrog on October 28, 2013, 11:03:24 PM
Well this thread got interesting fast.

Still not sure if whydee is trolling or not though.

I find this thread to be a profoundly bad idea. First, basing something off Reddit is automatically a bad idea in my opinion, since Reddit is Exhibit A for "the internet makes you stupid." Second, the Internet is the worst possible place for life counseling. Plenty of news stories about that, though this (http://zandronum.com/forum/showthread.php?tid=3484) comes to mind immediately.

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I know how you feel.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on October 29, 2013, 12:01:29 AM
I think this topic should go in this fashion: people come here to get something off their chest about themselves, while those who wish to comment on such things do so as long as shit doesn't even gain the necessary momentum to hit the fan.

EDIT: Although I have to admit that the fan in question is pretty much at butthole level with this topic.

why do i keep making scat metaphors
Title: Re: Jokes aside I am actually a girl
Post by: ZeStopper on October 29, 2013, 12:10:51 AM
Quote from: "Max"
I am a pretty princess and I will be offended if you refer to me as anything else
No, you are a frog princess.

Anyway, I find myself doing pull-ups on my dad's pull-up bar.
I am working out in a way.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on October 29, 2013, 12:14:40 AM
Quote from: "MusashiAA"
I think this topic should go in this fashion: people come here to get something off their chest about themselves, while those who wish to comment on such things do so as long as shit doesn't even gain the necessary momentum to hit the fan.
That's basically the direction it has been going in so far. Nobody has yet to come here for actual counseling as far as I can tell; they're just venting or sharing little facts.

So no worries.
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Post by: Awbawlisk on October 29, 2013, 01:13:47 AM
I should probably get this off my chest...

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ZeStopper on October 29, 2013, 01:23:08 AM
Unfortunately,
I happen to be in the cool crowd.

Meh.


Also, I have been harboring a deep dark secret.
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Deviddo on October 29, 2013, 03:13:17 AM
Musashi, are you insulting them or something?  If they feel lousy or that some member of their family doesn't understand them, then why can't they mention it?  Here of all places is appropriate, its not as if they go around "woe is me i hate my life".

Sorry if I'm being rude here, but I feel that was uncalled for.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Galactan on October 29, 2013, 03:59:29 AM
Okay, I'll give.

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ZeStopper on October 29, 2013, 04:10:17 AM
I get déjà vu a lot too.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Max on October 29, 2013, 09:59:13 AM
Quote from: "Balrog"
Still not sure if whydee is trolling or not though.

I'm a 26 year old bisexual who acts like she's 12
Come at me
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on October 29, 2013, 02:37:58 PM
Quote from: "Max"
Quote from: "Balrog"
Still not sure if whydee is trolling or not though.

I'm a 26 year old bisexual who acts like she's 12
Come at me

Yup, most definitely trolling. Can't take that seriously in any way.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on October 29, 2013, 02:53:07 PM
Well, I'm a 16 (17 in literally a day) year old bisexual that acts like they are in their 20s, and I'm not joking.

Also, can I just say that to contribute to this  I have an extremely irrational fear of losing friends. By irrational, I mean literally tearing up and crying at the thought of losing someone.

Is that a sign of a detachment issue?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on October 29, 2013, 03:44:03 PM
Losing friends as in breaking apart from them, or losing them as in having them pass away?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on October 29, 2013, 06:40:38 PM
Breaking apart, though people passing away in general makes me even more saddened.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: LlamaHombre on October 29, 2013, 09:09:47 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: -FiniteZero- on October 29, 2013, 11:51:04 PM
On most forums I'm on, I constantly feel as though I am the "newbie". Perhaps it's because I don't think I ever leave a lasting impact, or perhaps it's because I don't make friends easily, so I feel detached from the rest of the forum-goers. I have a similar problem in real life, where while I am quite friendly, I don't really get attached to people, either.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Dr. Freeman on October 29, 2013, 11:55:19 PM
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Oh now I feel bad...

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: XJ9 on October 30, 2013, 01:00:07 AM
MAYBE IF I SAY I'M ANDROGYNOUS PEOPLE WILL PAY ATTENTION TO ME
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on October 30, 2013, 01:17:20 AM
Quote from: "-FiniteZero-"
On most forums I'm on, I constantly feel as though I am the "newbie". Perhaps it's because I don't think I ever leave a lasting impact, or perhaps it's because I don't make friends easily, so I feel detached from the rest of the forum-goers. I have a similar problem in real life, where while I am quite friendly, I don't really get attached to people, either.
what the heck.

That is the same way I feel.

Well, I'm not sure about the "not leaving a lasting impact" part, but the rest of it is JUST like me.


I wonder how many people on here actually consider me as a friend of sorts?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Colonel ServBot on October 30, 2013, 01:29:29 AM
Well, Geno, I would consider you a friend if I knew a little bit more about you, traded banter a little, if you joined CSZ(Sarcasm), Have a few non-megaman related conversations, and if we played MM8BDM together frequently. I mean, thats how New_Female/LeoAlex50/AzureSky/Hilman170499/ ZeStopper all became friends. And personally, I think you'd be a pretty kick-ass friend if I got to know you.

Also, spoilered for a reason
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on October 30, 2013, 01:43:41 AM
Quote from: "Colonel ServBot"
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what the heck

If I told you that is just how I feel in certain occasions, would you believe me?

By the way Colonel, if you have Skype, you can always message me on there.

Anyway, not-so-embarrassing (not as much as the last ones...) but still a secret. (That I am kinda hoping for some advice on)
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Actually, that psycho rant I just wrote reminds me of another little thing.
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Whoa, I think that's the biggest post I've ever made on a forum ever. Not counting things like my skin and art topics, that is.

And I think ThePlayer/ZeStopper was right (In the weird dreams topic). I DO have problems.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on October 30, 2013, 02:20:52 AM
Quote from: "Geno"
If I told you that is just how I feel in certain occasions, would you believe me?
Yes. I think your feelings and thoughts in general are a lot more common than you seem to think. I see these same feelings and thoughts in many other people.


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Birthdays are a funny thing--when you're little, they're the greatest thing and you always look forward to them. As you grow older, though, it becomes something you dread as you begin to drift from your childhood.

So you're having trouble figuring out a career path? Pursue what you love. Find a path that reflects your ideas and passions. You enjoy graphic design, right? Why not go with that? I think you have talent.


Time is a scary thing, though, yes.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ZeStopper on October 30, 2013, 02:52:34 AM
Making friends with your fellow Cutopians is Colonel's Greatest and Most Sensible Idea that everyone can understand.

Except for illiterate people.


Making friends will guarantee you have fun on Cutstuff because there's always a person you can relate to and have fun with.


Oh, and before worrying about dieing Geno,

Be sure to live life to its fullest!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on October 30, 2013, 11:30:36 AM
It's not so much what I want to do for a living that's bugging me, but how I'm gonna get there.

Heck, I'm even thinking of pulling a Suntoad and getting together with my 2 (real life) friends and making a game company eventually.

There's also many people on here I think I could consider friends, but I'm not sure if they consider me their friend.


Still, thanks for the advice.


(Surprised nobody caught the little silly thing I hid in that post.)
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Gumballtoid on October 30, 2013, 07:34:07 PM
I aim to linger in town after high school for a year or so and amass funds while taking my time thinking through what I'm going to do with myself.

The only thing that sounds like something I could do is animation but since that's a year and a half away I'm not too worried about it right now.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Koal on October 30, 2013, 11:12:03 PM
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Title: I am become Brian, destroyer of smiles.
Post by: Mendez on November 06, 2013, 05:37:29 AM
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The historical reference serves as a analogy for how I felt back in September of 2011, just after I had finished AMP-MP and was looking to improve my maps along the way. Enter IX-pack. I think I already admitted this to Ivory, but on the day that IX-pack released, I cried. For abouuuuut a good five minutes straight. Rawk Hawk and Saviorsword were in a call with me when they told me IX-pack had just released. I got on the server and the first map I played on was IDM20. Or was it IDM02? Either way, I remember just walking around the map absolutely stunned and starting to cry, because I realized I was walking on my (mapping career's) grave. It took Rawk and Savior five whole minutes just to calm me down, and I honestly felt like a mess afterwards.
I think one of the main reasons AMP-MP 2 hasn't been made, and might never be made, is that I have yet to find a way to overcome the standard set by IX-pack twenty times over. I can certainly cook up good maps, and some might even say that the green medal puts me on equal footing with some of the great mappers of this community. By the way, remember when I went on that tirade about the green medal? Fun times. Anyways, it's something I always hold in my mind when it comes to AMP-MP 2, because I have never felt like my ideas would ever be good enough to stay on each server. Being a dev, I'm not too afraid of living up to the core's standards. I'm just afraid of letting down my own.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: -RanRan on November 21, 2013, 03:49:55 AM
When I was 13, my now fiance lifted me out a emotional depression that saved me from comtemplating suicide.

You're welcome.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on November 22, 2013, 02:19:24 PM
I never watched "Dr. Who".
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Tfp BreakDown on November 25, 2013, 12:36:38 AM
If this is for venting than I'll say this:

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So in tl;dr terms, Metroid Prime is getting annoying for my tastes.
(Also f*ck my T key on my keyboard for messing me up on online games and auto correct [currently posting this from phone])
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on November 25, 2013, 08:05:41 AM
Related to the selfies topic:

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on November 26, 2013, 05:38:12 PM
I find myself approaching things as if somebody's going to chase after me with a board w/ nail if I do something incorrectly.

Like sending messages via Steam. Especially Myroc.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Prims on January 03, 2014, 04:05:27 AM
im gay
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Azure Sky on January 14, 2014, 04:26:19 AM
Some of you might already know this, but I actually own a bunch of swords, daggers, shurikens, and kunai which I use to practice with during times of leisure.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on April 08, 2014, 03:55:39 AM
*Casually finds this thread*
>_>
<_<
I'M AFRAID OF TOASTERS AND VACUUM CLEANERS!!
...There, I said it!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ice on April 08, 2014, 06:42:26 AM
I have Dissociative Identity disorder
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on April 22, 2014, 01:13:19 AM
I've discovered that one major flaw with my personality is that if I do anything wrong that upsets someone, whether they be sad or mad with me, I feel like crap for about a month afterwards.

Heck, even when people tell me that it isn't a major thing, I still feel terrible.
And even when I KNOW it is only a minor thing, I feel terrible.

In fact, I feel really terrible right now.
Not the way I would have liked to spend the final few hours of my long weekend, but whatever.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: LlamaHombre on April 22, 2014, 01:15:24 AM
I still have that problem. :|
Just try your best to shrug it off and forget about it. More often than not it's trivial enough as to where you'll forget it in a couple of days.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on April 22, 2014, 02:44:29 AM
That reminds me that I almost cannot do anything without playing it as if it's a first impression, screwing it up, and hating myself for making a bad image later.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: <geminibro> on April 22, 2014, 11:19:05 AM
One time, a toaster made me jump before.

I'm not kidding.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on April 22, 2014, 11:40:41 AM
Quote from: "Ceridran"
That reminds me that I almost cannot do anything without playing it as if it's a first impression, screwing it up, and hating myself for making a bad image later.

One thing that I think works best is to be yourself! Do what you like and be who you'd like to be, don't change yourself or act as someone else to impress others, because I'm sure a lot of people would love and enjoy your company for being you!

You're pretty fun to be around, just remember that. : >
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: -FiniteZero- on April 22, 2014, 02:46:42 PM
So, I may as well say it.

I'm a coward.

When it comes to my fears (high places, bees, pain), I can't even come close to facing them.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on April 22, 2014, 10:59:29 PM
I wanna be a girl..
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on April 22, 2014, 11:26:33 PM
Me too...
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on April 23, 2014, 12:40:19 AM
Well, no one is stopping you! : )

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Just posting the facts.  :ugeek:
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on April 23, 2014, 01:54:04 AM
(I'm aware of all that, I'm just being honest with the world for once :> )
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Hallan Parva on April 23, 2014, 02:10:27 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on April 23, 2014, 02:21:29 AM
Quote from: "SmashBroPlusB"
in my opinion you can say "hey I consider myself to be a female" and not have to break out dictionary.com to make your point,
You can. Bringing out word definitions can help for some people though, as they might not fully understand everything immediately (not everyone looks into this sort of stuff very much, a lot of words and definitions aren't widely recognized). Sort of as a "just in case" type of thing. It's good to expand your vocabulary anyway! I don't think anyone's using big words just for the sake of it.

 
Quote from: "SmashBroPlusB"
much less attack others for not immediately realizing what your viewpoint and opinion even means to begin with
I don't ever see this happening anywhere ever.

I guess because I don't use tumblr, whoops.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: *Alice on April 23, 2014, 02:42:55 AM
Quote from: "Kapus"
Quote from: "SmashBroPlusB"
in my opinion you can say "hey I consider myself to be a female" and not have to break out dictionary.com to make your point,
You can. Bringing out word definitions can help for some people though, as they might not fully understand everything immediately (not everyone looks into this sort of stuff very much, a lot of words and definitions aren't widely recognized). Sort of as a "just in case" type of thing. It's good to expand your vocabulary anyway! I don't think anyone's using big words just for the sake of it.

 
Quote from: "SmashBroPlusB"
much less attack others for not immediately realizing what your viewpoint and opinion even means to begin with
I don't ever see this happening anywhere ever.

I guess because I don't use tumblr, whoops.
I have to say, I can understand the way sb+b feels. Many of the terms get used inside contexts that are hostile against cis persons. Spend a week on tumblr and other parts of the internet with a high amount of opinion-based content and you'll see what I mean.

But then, I'm someone who judges romantic loveability on mostly personality and a lot less on gender or sexuality (I wouldn't call myself fully pan-romantic, though). And yes, that does not match exactly with my sexual orientation.

So maybe I just don't care enough about genders and sexes to really care about all those terms. Cisgirls and Transgirls are the same for me in all relevant ways.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on April 23, 2014, 03:22:15 AM
Quote from: "*Alice"
I have to say, I can understand the way sb+b feels. Many of the terms get used inside contexts that are hostile against cis persons. Spend a week on tumblr and other parts of the internet with a high amount of opinion-based content and you'll see what I mean.
After hearing some stories from friends, I will fully take your word for this. Some people are just really insensitive and narrow minded, I guess. I know for sure it can be like that on both sides, but it's still rather sad because I hate to see the general populace of such people get a bad rep. There are plenty of good ones out there.

(always remember that the more obnoxious people are always the louder ones)

Quote from: "*Alice"
But then, I'm someone who judges romantic loveability on mostly personality and a lot less on gender or sexuality (I wouldn't call myself fully pan-romantic, though). And yes, that one does not match exactly with my sexual orientation.

So maybe I just don't care enough about genders and sexes to really care about all those terms. Cisgirls and Transgirls are the same for me in all relevant ways.
Me too, though! It's what's inside that counts.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on April 23, 2014, 03:29:51 AM
I wouldn't really blame you if you wanted to be the other gender

Though it's like you want a change to just happen with time too so that everything is set properly

Tacking these extra gender terms onto yourself is awful and you should never do it
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Galactan on April 23, 2014, 03:38:35 AM
I irrationally despise Linux.

But seriously:
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on April 23, 2014, 03:40:31 AM
Quote from: "Ceridran"
Tacking these extra gender terms onto yourself is awful and you should never do it
Why on earth? They're all real terms that help explain the topic, which isn't always simple to understand when you go deeper into it, and they are not in any way offensive by definition. Why should we be ashamed for using them?

Actually, I don't even think there are a whole lot of "gender terms" or that they are that difficult to understand if you try.

Quote from: "Ceridran"
Though it's like you want a change to just happen with time too so that everything is set properly
I'm not even sure what exactly you're trying to say here.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on April 23, 2014, 05:17:00 AM
I have the opposite feeling and I usually think I'm not being "manly enough".
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rozark on April 23, 2014, 05:46:40 AM
Quote from: "Laggy Blazko"
I have the opposite feeling and I usually think I'm not being "manly enough".

I feel as if the more rough times that a male has went through, the "manlier" you are in order to try and make up the lost time. It's just a connection I've seen in a few people, that's all.
Title: this sounds a lot more self righteous than it should
Post by: Korby on April 23, 2014, 03:37:41 PM
In my opinion, "manliness" has lost its meaning.

Perhaps I just consider a gentleman more manly than a man who can benchpress a ton.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Dataman on April 23, 2014, 06:14:48 PM
In the course of like 4 months I've spent more then 550 USD on TF2 items, mostly hats... No really.

On a more serious note... I have Asperger Syndrome.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rozark on April 23, 2014, 06:46:57 PM
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Mood music never hurt anything.
I tried starting that around 2:44 but I can't be bothered to do anything right now.

"Oh no Rozark is being dramatic look at that personality turn"
You know for the amount of flaunting, pride, and innovation I throw around with my normal attitude, I do hope you remember that I have faults that those traits cover up the best they can and that doing this every once in awhile isn't "bad" per se.

Yea so on a more serious note:
These last 24 hours have been extremely nightmare-ish for me and I regret everything during that time.
"But Rozark you wanted those things at one point why are you regretting it"
Shut it, my judgement isn't as great as I thought it would be.

In retrospect, I suppose trust was an even bigger issue for me than I previously thought.
I guess that's the only good that came from it really- figuring more out about myself.

That's enough venting for one day; I should be fine again tomorrow.
Title: Loneliness and Neglection
Post by: Awbawlisk on April 23, 2014, 09:36:18 PM
Quote from: "Dataman"
On a more serious note... I have Asperger Syndrome.

Same here, bro.

...Just wanted to point that out so you wouldn't seem well... alone...
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on April 23, 2014, 11:24:36 PM
Did I forget to mention I have ADD?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: coolcat7022 on April 23, 2014, 11:59:36 PM
You know, since we're on the spectrum topic, I have autism and I am proud!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Hallan Parva on April 24, 2014, 12:35:48 AM
I'm sorry

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Title: mild autism too
Post by: Rui on April 24, 2014, 12:42:58 AM
ah

so i wasn't the only one with ADD

cool~
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Gumballtoid on April 24, 2014, 12:51:43 AM
Technically I was diagnosed with ADHD, but I feel I've since outgrown it.
Title: I'm not autistic, i'm just weird.
Post by: Laggy Blazko on April 24, 2014, 01:11:37 AM
Quote from: "Rui-"
cool~
The thing is, I don't like it. :I
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on April 24, 2014, 01:18:58 AM
Well, i know how hard it can be having it, i'm just saying that cus it's nice to know i wasn't the only one here... @~@
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on April 24, 2014, 01:32:05 AM
As far as I'm aware I deal with nothing like that and I don't even have allergies
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Thunderono on April 24, 2014, 03:58:29 AM
I actually have a minor case of Asberger's Sydrome.  It's minor enough to really only cause me to stress easily, but I do actually have access to a 504 plan.  I was a little surprised to find out how many others here have the same condition.

Thank god I don't have to take those stupid pills anymore.  I don't care what you say, pills are supposed to be capsules.

Also I'm far too underweight for my age
I'm like 100 pounds exactly and nearing my sixteenth birthday
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on April 24, 2014, 04:03:52 AM
Quote from: "Thunder Electros"
Also I'm far too underweight for my age
I'm like 100 pounds exactly and nearing my sixteenth birthday
I don't think I was that much heavier when I was 16. I don't even weigh 120 as I am now. Don't worry about it! Some of us are just pretty light. I have a rather high metabolism, which I think contributes to it.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: *Alice on April 25, 2014, 06:35:31 PM
I am bad at talking in ways people don't misunderstand.

And I edit all my posts and PMs I write here countless times after posting/sending because there are always things that I feel like I need to add.

And I don't talk too clearly irl. Both in terms of articulation and talking too quietly. But I happen to talk too loudly annoyingly often, too, because I just can't really control how loud I talk too well.

And I severely dislike talking on the phone because it relies even more on what you say than normal talking does. And you can't quickly add things like in text form.

And I often talk without thinking beforehand.

And I keep using either too many short independent clauses or overly nested subordinate clauses which is probably really annoying to decipher.

I'm horrible at talking.


Now guess how often I feel dumb/embarassed/other bad things because of things I say/write.
Also, these are some of the reasons why I never used and probably never will use Skype calls, ever.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on April 25, 2014, 07:34:29 PM
Quote from: "*Alice"
I am bad at talking in ways people don't misunderstand.

And I edit all my posts and PMs I write here countless times after posting/sending because there are always things that I feel like I need to add.

And I don't talk too clearly irl. Both in terms of articulation and talking too quietly. But I happen to talk too loudly annoyingly often, too, because I just can't really control how loud I talk too well.

And I severely dislike talking on the phone because it relies even more on what you say than normal talking does. And you can't quickly add things like in text form.

And I often talk without thinking beforehand.

And I keep using either too many short independent clauses or overly nested subordinate clauses which is probably really annoying to decipher.

I'm horrible at talking.


Now guess how often I feel dumb/embarassed/other bad things because of things I say/write.
Also, these are some of the reasons why I never used and probably never will use Skype calls, ever.

These all apply to me as well. Especially the last one, and the fact that I either talk quietly, or I talk loud in a mad or unrefined tone.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rozark on April 27, 2014, 10:19:14 AM
I find myself getting bored more often than I should as of late.
I don't really know what to do anymore.
I mean, I know what I want to do, I just can't really do it.
It's just a lack of motivation I suppose- but I really am trying.

Something exciting should happen so I can gain interest, perhaps.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: SmashTheEchidna on April 27, 2014, 03:28:09 PM
I know exactly how you feel, Rozark. I find myself the same way more often than I have any right to.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ice on May 01, 2014, 02:21:49 AM
You know what's fun? having multiple personalities, mild tourrettes, and one of my personalities has extreme rage issues
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on May 01, 2014, 02:24:01 AM
Huh, is that why your CSCC class is both Ice and Sparky?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ice on May 01, 2014, 02:30:53 AM
yep, even though there are more of them, those two are my most prominant

In short, I really need mental help @_@
Title: I have to vent about this rubbish somehow.
Post by: Geno on May 02, 2014, 02:03:00 AM
I tend to operate as if everyone thinks I'm a loser.
So, for example, if I go on about my opinion about something (like, say, Mario Kart 8's remade courses), I automatically assume people don't give a crap and are sick and tired of me going on about it.
And, for another example, whenever I draw, sprite, or doodle anything to do with my character, I also automatically assume people don't care, and they think my character's rubbish or something...
(To be honest, I'll probably feel a little better if someone assures me that this is not the case, as so far, I can only hopefully assume that this is not the case for my 1 friend that actually also considers me their friend at this place)

Maybe this has to do with how most other humanoids treat me at school, what with all this "pretending I don't exist" crap they seem to pull on me. (The only times they acknowledge my existence, is if I am doing some sort of terrible oral presentation in class, if I hold the door for them although that only seems to apply to girls and teachers, as well as my aforementioned friends, or if they need to steal a chair from me.)
With the exception of my friends, teachers, a few acquaintances, and a handful of assholes who I wish would LEAVE ME ALONE when they see me, this applies to everyone.
Although I bet that the only reason why this is affecting me so much, is that I went from basically being friends with everybody in my (gifted) grade, to having virtually no friends at all, and the few ones I have, I usually do not share classes with them, EVEN THOUGH WE DO HAVE THE SAME CLASSES!

So, in other words, unless I make friends with anyone, they don't care 'bout me, and forget I exist. YEP, THAT DEFINITELY MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY[/sarcasm]

'though this kinda explains why I enjoy being on this site, more than at school; more people actually take note of my existence (well, HOPEFULLY)
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on May 02, 2014, 02:08:10 AM
Well, if you want me to be honest, I always thought your characters looked really cool and the sprite comics you've made were pretty fun to read! O:

Also, I'd like to talk to you more, and I think you're a really rad person, thing is that I'm rather really shy and I tend to be a bit intimidated if I ever make myself look weird/awkward in a conversation. @w@
Title: Re: I have to vent about this rubbish somehow.
Post by: Ceridran on May 02, 2014, 02:13:43 AM
Quote from: "Geno"
I tend to operate as if everyone thinks I'm a loser.

I think it's obvious how much more I do this than you do.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Dr. Freeman on May 02, 2014, 02:15:58 AM
Real talk Geno, while I never interact with you ever I think most of your spritework are the bees knees. You shouldn't feel down on yourself for it, it's usually pretty nifty.

Whoaaaa motivation speech
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Knux on May 02, 2014, 02:17:17 AM
And you beat me to it, Freeman. I wish I could sprite something half that good even once.
Title: Re: I have to vent about this rubbish somehow.
Post by: Kapus on May 02, 2014, 02:42:49 AM
Quote from: "Geno"
I tend to operate as if everyone thinks I'm a loser.
So, for example, if I go on about my opinion about something (like, say, Mario Kart 8's remade courses), I automatically assume people don't give a crap and are sick and tired of me going on about it.
And, for another example, whenever I draw, sprite, or doodle anything to do with my character, I also automatically assume people don't care, and they think my character's rubbish or something...
(To be honest, I'll probably feel a little better if someone assures me that this is not the case, as so far, I can only hopefully assume that this is not the case for my 1 friend that actually also considers me their friend at this place)
Humility is a wonderful quality to have, and something I admire in you. Just don't let it get you down in the dumps too much (hilarious to hear this coming from me). Don't feel bad about sharing your thoughts and ideas--this is a public forum. That's what we're supposed to do! I think your art is pretty neat, for the record.

When I draw stuff, I initially assume people don't care (who wants to see the nth drawing of Buggy?), but I post it in the art thread anyway because I love drawing and I love to share my art. And even then, there are actually several drawings I make that I don't post in the art thread anyway because I assume the general public wouldn't care. I don't let it get me down though because I draw for myself and my friends foremost.

Quote from: "Geno"
Although I bet that the only reason why this is affecting me so much, is that I went from basically being friends with everybody in my (gifted) grade, to having virtually no friends at all, and the few ones I have, I usually do not share classes with them, EVEN THOUGH WE DO HAVE THE SAME CLASSES!
I LIVED MY ENTIRE LIFE HOMESCHOOLED I NEVER GOT TO HAVE ANY FRIENDS AT ALL

then again there weren't any bullies either so I'm not really complaining much. Still, every time someone describes highschool to me it sounds increasingly awful and I'm sorry you have to go through it.

Quote from: "Geno"
So, in other words, unless I make friends with anyone, they don't care 'bout me, and forget I exist. YEP, THAT DEFINITELY MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY
'though this kinda explains why I enjoy being on this site, more than at school; more people actually take note of my existence (well, HOPEFULLY)
There's definitely not a strict binary here. There are several people out there that might like you and consider you cool despite not actually being your "friends".

(also I'm pretty happy being your friend but I don't talk too much because you're admittedly a bit hard to approach for me)
Title: Re: I have to vent about this rubbish somehow.
Post by: Ceridran on May 02, 2014, 03:21:04 AM
Quote from: "Kapus"
Humility is a wonderful quality to have, and something I admire in you.

I tried this "humility" thing once. I'm just too much of an idiot to not have turned it into self deprecation.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on May 02, 2014, 04:28:55 AM
Well it's kind of hard to do that sometimes, yeah, but I still think that extreme is more favorable than the other side of the spectrum (arrogance, entitlement, etc.)
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on May 02, 2014, 06:07:28 AM
I browse 9gag.

Yep.

So I found this (http://9gag.com/gag/a44BpAy).

I make that kind of mistakes all the time. <_>
Title: Re: I have to vent about this rubbish somehow.
Post by: Koal on May 02, 2014, 10:34:18 AM
Quote from: "Geno"
So, in other words, unless I make friends with anyone, they don't care 'bout me, and forget I exist. YEP, THAT DEFINITELY MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY

To be fair, nobody is obligated to care about you nor are you obligated to care about them. Such is the way of life. But better to receive no attention at all then to receive unwanted attention.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on May 02, 2014, 10:55:29 AM
Hey now, human relationships are much more complex than just a simple mental decision to care or not.

It's not like you can just decide whether you care about someone or not as if it was some sort of visual novel, you know?

While unwanted attention from certain people can be aggravating, having attention for yourself when you need it can actually be very helpful. I mean, we all want to be noticed when we need it!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Koal on May 02, 2014, 11:57:13 AM
You don't quite know what the word obligation means, do you? If I spent my time trying to care about every damn person I meet then I would have no time for the people in my life that actually mean something to me. Maybe its just me, but coming to such decision's is extremely easy for me. Its mostly just the way I've been raised to care about my family and friends and nobody else.
Title: im soo sorry misinterpretation is something that kinda happe
Post by: Rui on May 02, 2014, 12:53:00 PM
Quote from: "Koal"
obligation


... Ooohhh. My bad. I guess I mistook what you were saying as something insensitive to the issue.

Anyways, yeah, I totally get what you're saying, but
I think reaching out to new people sometimes may bring in a good new friend or maybe someone even more valuable.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on May 02, 2014, 12:58:24 PM
Well, yeah, I know that there are some exceptions to that, and I know people aren't obligated to care about me, but the least they could do, is acknowledge my existence.

Like, once in gym class, the teams were divided evenly, and my team thought they were one person short because I did not exist to them.

Also, several times, somebody would bump into me, and instead of apoligizing, they'd WONDER HOW THEY COULD HAVE BUMPED INTO THIN AIR.

Stuff like that bugs me a ton.

Also,
Quote from: "Kapus"
then again there weren't any bullies either so I'm not really complaining much. Still, every time someone describes highschool to me it sounds increasingly awful and I'm sorry you have to go through it.
I am lucky, as the school board deemed me intelligent enough that I can go to special schools where there's more work.
I don't like the more work bit, but the high school that I'm at has 0% bullying.

honest engines
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: <geminibro> on May 02, 2014, 01:10:14 PM
I have ADHD and Autism, but only in a minority. And i have... A bit of a Stardroid obsession, to put it simple.

EDIT: Added Autism; forgot to put it on there.
Title: Re: hope you realize I'm still going to call her Molly
Post by: Hallan Parva on May 02, 2014, 03:52:36 PM
Quote from: "Geno"
I tend to operate as if everyone thinks I'm a loser.
So, for example, if I go on about my opinion about something (like, say, Mario Kart 8's remade courses), I automatically assume people don't give a crap and are sick and tired of me going on about it. And, for another example, whenever I draw, sprite, or doodle anything to do with my character, I also automatically assume people don't care, and they think my character's rubbish or something...
is that the reason I haven't seen anything Molly-related for a while now

c'mon Geno that's no good
I'd say inspirational things but everyone else beat me to the good stuff

your spriting is a marvel, there's a good reason you were handpicked for the 8BDM dev team


now go forth and show the world more Molly
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Beed28 on May 04, 2014, 06:20:34 PM
Everytime now I think to the events of last week or even think about "Mega May", I get a horrible feeling of depression in my stomach and makes me not want to do anything for a long while. :(
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Dataman on May 04, 2014, 09:13:32 PM
I'm just going to say this now because It's all I really have to say right now that's actually relevant to this thread:

I'm pretty much the worst League of Legends player who ever lived. It's a miracle if I can take down a single Champion Bot.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Korby on May 04, 2014, 09:27:14 PM
you shouldn't expect to be amazing within a week of downloading the game. it takes a long time to get decent, and a longer time to get good.

I've been playing for more than three years and I'm still not as good as some people.
Title: Re: im soo sorry misinterpretation is something that kinda h
Post by: Koal on May 05, 2014, 08:30:34 PM
Quote from: "Rui-"
insensitive


I hear this being said about me an awful lot. I have a tendency to be very honest and extremely blunt with how I talk to people. I guess it could come off as insensitive to those who's feelings get bruised easier then overripe fruit. But I won't change who I am to cater to other's, it just isn't right.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Tfp BreakDown on May 26, 2014, 11:57:00 PM
Why is it that some posts or some users on here make me want to feel like do something violent on them or feel disgusted at their posts for either the way they type or what they type. Makes me feel even worse when they post after me. I don't mean to start trouble or make anyone feel bad but I just feel like I want to get this off of my chest. probably going to get in trouble here for this
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on May 27, 2014, 12:16:17 AM
Wow.

That is the first time in a long time that anybody ever threatened that they would hurt me.
(Although this instance is only implied, as the specific people you were talking about are not specified)

Now I feel really.... uhh..... unhappy(?)

it'd probably make me feel better if i was told that i was an exception to those feelings



welp, i disgust you, don't i?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Tfp BreakDown on May 27, 2014, 12:17:50 AM
I guess I forgot to mention not all of the posts I see make me full with disgust. Just only a select few. now I feel like an idiot doing that
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: DrMario2 on May 30, 2014, 07:32:47 AM
I have this obsession of making fake "Pokemon"...

(http://i.imgur.com/YiEAUef.png)
Title: Apologies for the bump
Post by: Beed28 on August 17, 2014, 02:46:11 PM
Going to come out with this:

I easily wince at live-action gore.

Dear lord, my family was watching Breaking Bad on Netflix while I was on the couch playing Minecraft. There was a scene where a guy walks out of an explosion (or not, he eventually falls down) which I happened to look up at. It looks like he's fine at first, but then the camera pans around... to reveal his half of his face missing. Dear lord. You see it all; blood running down, a massive part of his skin blown away, revealing his SKULL, and a huge gaping hole where his eye-socket had been, with his eyeball completely gone. It was all in a show shot in realistic live-action. My god, I actually vomited a little on the floor shortly afterwards. Even Two-Face has nothing on that.

I'm alright with gore in a video game, but I just can't take it in live-action.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: -FiniteZero- on August 17, 2014, 03:00:57 PM
I'm the same way; While I don't get nauseous, I still really don't like it.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ivory on August 17, 2014, 03:53:30 PM
Nothing too abnormal, I can't stand seeing it either.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on August 17, 2014, 04:33:08 PM
You can mix it with the right side of Harvey's face.
Two-Face never had anything on anybody.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on August 17, 2014, 04:39:52 PM
eeeeuuugh

I can see why you threw up a little during that scene. That sounds AWFUL!

Yeah, super-hyper-realistic-live-action-gore kind of things tend to gross me out too.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: SmashTheEchidna on August 17, 2014, 05:23:04 PM
This is why I tend to avoid gory stuff in general. Gah.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Beed28 on August 18, 2014, 06:17:17 PM
Another thing I want to let out:

I tend to avoid voiced Let's Plays most of the time.

The only exception is when my older brother starts watching them or watching people I've become familiar with thanks to him such as Classic Game Room or Lisa Foils or even Yahtzee (both Drown Outs and Zero Punctuations). But I tend to avoid them in case I come upon someone with a really strange accent or even screaming.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on August 18, 2014, 06:25:13 PM
If I've got this right, is what you really don't like loud sounds? It sounds like you much prefer to listen to the voices of those you're familiar with, because you know they won't suddenl-"OH MAN  THAT GUY WAS TERRIBLE AAHAHAHAAHAHHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA"
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Galactan on August 18, 2014, 07:37:27 PM
You're afraid of strange accents?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Knux on September 09, 2014, 05:19:44 AM
Ugh, man. I've been feeling distant from everyone around me lately, including internet contacts. Most of the time, I feel like I don't get involved enough with people and that makes me kind of depressed. And I mean, like total crap. Every day that passes right now feels monotonous and dull, and I currently feel like exploding out of existence if I had the ability to do so.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 09, 2014, 05:28:44 AM
When you interact with people, do they generally come to you or do you come to them?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Knux on September 09, 2014, 05:35:29 AM
The latter, mostly. I guess I don't do stuff that makes people want to talk to me much, or something. Yeah, no idea.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 09, 2014, 05:45:18 AM
So, have people just been responding less or have you just been putting less effort in reaching out to people?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Knux on September 09, 2014, 05:57:32 AM
Actually, it's funny you ask that. It's been a thing throughout my entire life that when I try to legit get someone's attention because I have something important to say, and they keep on not listening, I give up on talking at all. Needless to say, I get extremely frustrated when people don't listen at all, as if I'm not there, or cut me off when I'm talking to them (especially if they asked about something in the first place!) I think that's rude, and I have no idea if being elaborate with my answers bothers people, but I LIKE being elaborate whenever I feel I can be.

But anyway, to answer your question, I have been putting on less effort to reach people. Probably because of how apathetic I'm feeling towards trying. The feeling of futility that comes out of it. Yeah, I don't feel exactly encouraged to get involved with people after trying for so long, only to end up just as alone.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Shinryu on September 09, 2014, 06:18:45 AM
Hopefully I'm not barging in on this, but I can understand the aspects of getting frustrated when people either don't listen or cut others off when speaking (trust me, I had to grow up in a house where that sort of thing happened all the time), along with the element of elaborating a lot when speaking. I've been told I tend to over analyze things quite a bit, but you know what? A part of me can't help myself in doing so. I enjoy elaborating in-depth on things, and quite honestly, I enjoy listening and reading in-depth conversations from others as well. I guess it just takes a while to find others with a similar liking for this sort of thing.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Knux on September 09, 2014, 06:30:05 AM
To me, it seems that the world breeds out a lot more impatient people everyday. People who can't stop to think and analyze, just doing things and being extremely simplistic. Now, I'm not bashing people for this, but when that simplistic attitude hurts others and they just run along like nothing happened around them? Man, does that fire me up in anger. Who knows, maybe they're too busy with their world to care. All I know is I can't stop thinking deeply about a lot of things, including the pit of a life I've dug myself into (which I'd rather not talk about here.)
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 09, 2014, 07:00:03 AM
So you put less effort into reaching people now because you feel you will be left alone in the end.

Please bear with me here--I genuinely want to help you and hold no ill will towards you. I don't want anyone to be depressed or lonely, especially over something like this.


I'm going to try and be rather simple here. From my understanding, people tend to distance themselves from you a bit or silence you out due to your occasional hostile attitudes. I speak mostly from my experience in the mapper's skype chat, and I'm sure a lot of other people can attest to this. There have been many times in the past where you have blown up at people in rather childish fits. You seem to have a serious problem with anger and grudges, and a lot of times get furious at people to the point where they are driven away. You act nice most of the time, but when someone goes on about something you disagree with or confronts you about something, you get disturbingly angry. During those times, you seem to act very self centered and display little regard to other people's thoughts or feelings. Ironically, you state that you are annoyed with people who act impatient all day, but I think you need a healthy dose of patience and tolerance yourself.

In addition to that, you rarely, if ever, seem to apologize for these events. You never seem to have any idea that you ever acted any bit wrong during those blowups. It seems to me that you either have a complete lack of sympathy or you're just very afraid of being wrong or making mistakes in some way.


I think people tend to be wary of getting any closer to you for these reasons, and I hope you can acknowledge and work at some of this. I state again that I hold no ill will towards you nor do I think that you're a bad person. You just seem very troubled, and I want and have been wanting to help.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Knux on September 09, 2014, 07:05:51 AM
...I don't have a legit answer to any of that. I get angry, like everyone else. That doesn't mean you can come in here, start up an interrogatory, then go bash me about how I act without any context nor sympathy as if I'm the only one at fault.

I'm never posting here again. Good night.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 09, 2014, 07:11:36 AM
I'm not sure if you fully read my post. I was not trying to bash you or attack you about the way you act. I did interrogate, yes, but that's because I want to help. I really, really want to help.

HELP. Not hurt. I come in peace. I don't want to be an enemy, I want to be a friend. I want to assist you and understand you. But if you won't let me do that, then alright. It is your choice.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on September 09, 2014, 12:47:59 PM
aw man, now Knux is gone.

Although it was a little weird how angry he got at Kappy.
She was only trying to help!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: coolcat7022 on September 09, 2014, 06:57:14 PM
Some people hate being told their way isn't right, just like a please stop
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 09, 2014, 07:02:05 PM
Stop making prejudicial comments towards religious groups. I figured you were just being clueless the fist time, but now I'm under the impression that you're just trolling or trying to be funny.

Seriously, stop.
Title: Please stop
Post by: Rozark on September 09, 2014, 07:03:14 PM
Quote from: "coolcat7022"
Some people hate being told their way isn't right, just like a christian.

You're really good at offending multiple people at once aren't you.
That's bad.
I personally don't care because I don't have any religious affiliation, but it IS getting quite annoying

Edit: Darn kappy beat me to it
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Post by: Ceridran on September 09, 2014, 07:06:13 PM
Quote from: "coolcat7022"
Some people hate being told their way isn't right, just like a staaaaaap.
did you ever stop to think that religious people believe
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on September 12, 2014, 03:16:45 PM
I'm a Buddhist (a very lousy one), and I find that offensive, coolcat...
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: sa173533 on September 14, 2014, 06:38:29 PM
I actually have a confession.I really like making friends and I actually cry when one of my friends goes away for good.You guys are like my friends and I enjoy having you guys as my friends,even if we have arguments.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on September 14, 2014, 09:24:30 PM
^^^^^
wow

Once again, I am surprised that someone else feels the exact same way about something that I feel
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Nostalgia on September 14, 2014, 09:32:39 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on September 14, 2014, 09:34:53 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Nostalgia on September 14, 2014, 09:37:14 PM
Ya hit the nail on the head, ceridran

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on September 14, 2014, 09:39:48 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: sa173533 on September 14, 2014, 10:08:49 PM
Quote from: "Geno"
^^^^^
wow

Once again, I am surprised that someone else feels the exact same way about something that I feel

Thank you,Geno-chan.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 14, 2014, 10:23:58 PM
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Ah, the woes of a perfectionist. I know exactly what you mean and how you feel. It really sucks.

Quote from: "sa173533"
I actually have a confession.I really like making friends and I actually cry when one of my friends goes away for good.You guys are like my friends and I enjoy having you guys as my friends,even if we have arguments.
This is the most adorable post I have ever read on this forum.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: sa173533 on September 14, 2014, 10:26:57 PM
Again,thank you,Kapus.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Yuri Sakazaki on September 15, 2014, 10:14:16 AM
Quote from: "sa173533"
I actually have a confession.I really like making friends and I actually cry when one of my friends goes away for good.You guys are like my friends and I enjoy having you guys as my friends,even if we have arguments.
!!! Another oooone

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Friends are the greatest thing on this planet <3
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: sa173533 on September 15, 2014, 12:17:15 PM
Oh,you too?It seems that many of you agree with me on my confession.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on September 15, 2014, 05:44:04 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on September 15, 2014, 05:47:11 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on September 15, 2014, 06:56:01 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on September 15, 2014, 08:17:02 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on September 15, 2014, 10:19:53 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on September 20, 2014, 06:29:14 AM
i masturbate like 7 times a day and sometimes even more and i can't stop doing it
i wish i could stop but i really can't and i feel like trash 90% of the time
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 20, 2014, 07:02:29 AM
Is seven like an exaggerated number or are you being completely literal?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on September 20, 2014, 07:46:38 AM
it's an average, sometimes i do like 5, sometimes i can go up to 11

i might stop if it hurts but even if it does sometimes i'll just keep going
i've tried many different things to like, decrease the amount of times i do that, or the frecuency, but i always fail

sometimes i wish about the things i could be doing instead of, well, that, and it really gets me down and ruins my mood :c
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 20, 2014, 08:09:06 AM
I can understand how that would make you gloomy.

This is a bit of an odd case for me to hear about, though, and I unfortunately do not know what to offer for advice. Is it really that hard to control yourself from doing it? Perhaps if you ever feel tempted you can remind yourself of the bad feelings it brings afterward.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on September 20, 2014, 08:23:39 AM
there's not much i can do anyway, thinking about how bad it'll make me feel will get me down anyway, and i'll end up with the same result, most likely.

i just felt like confessing it since i saw this thread and it was the first thing i thought of, sorry if it might seem disgusting to anyone or something
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 20, 2014, 07:50:35 PM
No, it is fine. I'm not really disgusted. Much more so concerned.

You may end up with the same result of sadness a bit, but do you think it would help you to stop the habit anyway?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Hilman170499 on September 21, 2014, 03:52:53 AM
I'm gonna post here. First of all, I'm tall, dark(black hair), and wacky. I also have a tendency to laugh sometimes. I am hunting for enjoyment.

I also have many weaknesses, including:
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With that said, smell ya'- I mean hope you take the news smoothly and BLUE FOR DAYS!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on September 29, 2014, 02:35:27 PM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on October 07, 2014, 02:54:06 PM
I'm a huge fan of violent, war themed games and that kind of stuff, but... I actually get really angry whenever I watch news on TV and I see war, crimes or terrorism.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ice on October 07, 2014, 05:35:39 PM
I think it's cause real people are getting hurt as opposed to pixels, it's perfectly normal.

Also I just realized I am True Neutral, in more ways then 1
I'm also feeling a tad under apreciated lately :/
in Secondlife I made an avatar for someone, but they never wore it once and are now asking for another avi which feels makes me think "What if they're not even going to use this one either?'
And in the artistic side, Ive done several drawings lately, but I have yet to get a single comment on them on DeviantArt, Tumblr, Facebook, and even on here (except for my 5naf drawing apparently)
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Russel on October 15, 2014, 03:51:11 PM
Deconstruction of one's own concepts isn't particularly a bad thing. Just straight up downing them for literally no reason is, however.

If you have ideas you think are cool, you should share them and sometimes people will respond positively and give you good feedback on the subject. It's incredibly helpful to pitch such ideas to people who are experienced in the topic and ask if they have any input and modify your ideas to conform, at least in part, to the given input if you feel it will improve on the idea.

Sometimes ideas sound really great on paper but in execution they can turn out to be utter trash. Take for instance Under Siege, an arena-styled first-person shooter game mixed with an objective system of a MOBA. Doesn't sound bad on paper, right? However, when you take apart the individual features of both a MOBA and an arena shooter, you get conflicts that simply can't be resolved. This is why the game was never finished even though I spent essentially an entire summer working on a basis for it.

While yes, it is good to criticize your own ideas, it isn't good to completely shut them down with no reason behind it. The same applies when criticizing the ideas of others.
Title: Redacted
Post by: Rozark on November 21, 2014, 02:38:37 AM
Things have changed.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: LarissaFlash on November 21, 2014, 11:18:37 AM
I'm utterly depressed always.   :cry:
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on November 21, 2014, 07:46:11 PM
Slow down a bit. Why do people hate you? What happened to make you depressed?

It sounds like you might be dealing with some peer pressure.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: -FiniteZero- on November 25, 2014, 11:34:24 PM
Sometimes I feel that my strong sense of apathy is the only reason the future doesn't scare the hell out of me. Though sometimes it does anyways.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on November 30, 2014, 03:16:48 PM
Quote from: "LarissaFlash"
I'm utterly depressed always.   :cry:
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If you feel upset or need someone to talk to, I'm always willing to listen on Skype. My username is ohcrapitssam if you ever feel like chatting, even if it's not in a negative note.

Stay strong, you can do it.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: CDRom11_2007 on December 02, 2014, 01:53:53 AM
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Counting that one of those things is the thing that kept me going in the worst of situations, I just don't know anymore...
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on December 02, 2014, 02:34:25 AM
Please go into more detail than that!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on December 02, 2014, 03:09:21 AM
giving up on things isn't really as bad as most people think, sometimes you just need to move on, or need a change

however, giving up on yourself or letting other people decide your fate will just lead to not enjoying what you're doing, or worse, losing your light and not enjoying life

if you don't know anymore, then maybe you need a little bit of time to reflect or think about your situation, whatever it is

that's what i think, anyway, i don't know anything about what you're going through, but i can say is that you should have faith in yourself, i'm sure things will be fine!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kage on December 05, 2014, 12:53:09 AM
Meh, I guess I'll just go ahead an say it. I could always delete it later anyways.

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on December 05, 2014, 12:57:02 AM
I didn't even know you had Skype!!!

I like seeing you around the servers, I mean, I can't say all that much since we haven't talked at all (I do remember the very few times we did talk in-game, though! I remember seeing you during my Lobstacle Course days.)

I'd love to talk with you!!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: SmashTheEchidna on December 05, 2014, 02:09:27 AM
Kage, you are one of the few people on Cutstuff who I feel the most comfortable hanging out with. You're a fun guy and easy to talk to, and you always keep me on my toes when it comes to 8bdm; I dare say you are my equal in skill. There's a dang good reason I flat out reserved a spot for you on my team in the tourney, and that's all of the above.

I'm pretty sure a lot of people would love to talk to you though! Maybe you should try to open up to others a bit more on Skype or something?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kage on December 07, 2014, 12:38:01 AM
Rui, I'd be honored if I could talk to you more. Even though I haven't talked to you much, you are always friendly and fun to talk to.

Smash, you are definitely one of the few people I never doubted as a friend. You have always been a cool rival and a great friend to me. Whether we are fighting against each other or working together as a tag team, you have always kept my spirits fired up in every battle.

Perhaps you are right Smash, but I have a couple other reasons why I don't go on Skype. One, I always seem to be busy with life and school. I'm worried if I do appear more often on Skype, I won't have time to focus on anything else. Two, I'm worried I'll feel overwhelmed if a bunch of people want to talk to me at once. I may end up disappointing someone if they think I'm ignoring them or something. At least if I don't appear online, people won't hold me to higher expectations to be online. Maybe it is silly to think this way, but this is how I am.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on December 07, 2014, 01:24:47 AM
Quote from: "Kage"
Two, I'm worried I'll feel overwhelmed if a bunch of people want to talk to me at once. I may end up disappointing someone if they think I'm ignoring them or something.

This is really rare. More often you'l be starting a conversation than joining one.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on December 07, 2014, 01:40:43 AM
Quote from: "Ceridran"
Quote from: "Kage"
Two, I'm worried I'll feel overwhelmed if a bunch of people want to talk to me at once. I may end up disappointing someone if they think I'm ignoring them or something.

This is really rare. More often you'l be starting a conversation than joining one.
Speak for yourself. I'm invisible 99% of the time on skype for the exact reasons Kage mentioned.


Kage, it's understandable if you want to neglect your skype in hopes of focusing on your work. That's smart, in fact. But if you're feeling lonely and at the same time don't wish to make your appearance very public, then really I can just suggest going out of your way to socialize a bit more. Keep at it. Try to get to know people on a more personal level instead of just being another zandronum player.

Regardless, I do think your lack of public appearance (referring to skype) contributes a bit to this. You used to talk to me quite a bit back in the day, and you introduced me to one of my current favorite games, but you were always offline and I could never tell when you would genuinely be around. On top of that, while you were still a friend, I didn't feel that I could get to know you very personally while it lasted, so I didn't feel a very strong bond aside from being a pal.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Korby on December 07, 2014, 05:12:37 AM
do you want to be added to freeman's chat or sommat?
pretty sure dudes there would be fine with you being there

lots of calls go on in there if you care about that sort of thing
Title: Just remember not to click any of Smash's links. Ever.
Post by: Gumballtoid on December 07, 2014, 08:10:36 PM
We could add you back to Tengu's chat as well, if you'd like. We played Smash Bros. Brawl online a few times, remember? You were in there back in 2012 but I think you got removed when you didn't show up online for a long while. I'm sure everyone there would be happy to have you.
Title: Been busy and thinking this past week
Post by: Kage on December 15, 2014, 06:31:50 AM
Perhaps you are right Kapus, maybe I do need to socialize more. But..sometimes it is just kind of difficult for me to socialize if I'm just not that social to begin with. While it may not take effort for someone else to get into a conversation, I always have to think about what I want to say before I can chat. There is even times that I had a hard time coming on to Skype just cause I simply don't know what to talk about.

Regardless, I am sorry for not being online as you may have want me to be. I suppose I can at least try harder to just at least appear online and try again to be a friend to you and other people.

Korby and Gumball, you can add me into those group chats but I'm not for sure if I'll be able to chat as often.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on December 15, 2014, 08:25:47 AM
Don't force you to be so much social if you are not like that ^^
For me, you are cool yet ...and relax man!
Maybe you need more activities with people, actually? I dont know o:
Title: Re: Been busy and thinking this past week
Post by: Kapus on December 15, 2014, 05:26:24 PM
Quote from: "Kage"
While it may not take effort for someone else to get into a conversation, I always have to think about what I want to say before I can chat.
I'm like that all the time. Does this make you anxious around people or something? Either way, I don't think that's a sign of being very asocial. I think that just means you're more introverted than most, and are perhaps a bit of a thinker.
Title: Hil's Counselling Corner
Post by: Hilman170499 on December 17, 2014, 04:27:01 PM
Hello there Cutstuff. Tall, dark and wacky here again with more news:
Warning: Open at your own risk.
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BLUE FOR DAYS!!!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kage on December 22, 2014, 09:00:45 PM
Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
Don't force you to be so much social if you are not like that ^^
For me, you are cool yet ...and relax man!
Maybe you need more activities with people, actually? I dont know o:
Thankz Stone! I suppose it would probably help if I do more activities with people.

Quote from: "Kapus"
I'm like that all the time. Does this make you anxious around people or something? Either way, I don't think that's a sign of being very asocial. I think that just means you're more introverted than most, and are perhaps a bit of a thinker.
Depending on the scenario, I could feel anxious around people. Usually it is either there are too many people trying to talk to me or someone not responding when I do want to talk to them. I've always known that I am an introvert,  and that does hinder me from time to time. I don't mind talking to people at all. However,  I just feel that I'm bad at starting conversations though as well as maintain constant communication with any individual. Even now, I'm still not very enticed to get on Skype.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: SmashTheEchidna on December 22, 2014, 10:41:04 PM
Quote from: "Kage"
I just feel that I'm bad at starting conversations though as well as maintain constant communication with any individual.

I have been like that for as long as I can remember. I even actively avoided chats for a while, partially for this reason.
Generally hanging around and making new friends has helped me open up a bit better, but I'm still rather quiet in person.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Smunch on December 25, 2014, 08:18:31 AM
I don't think I really have anything to contribute here; I just read through this topic on Christmas and its probably the fluffiest thing I'll do all day, reading about people's troubles and people trying to help.  Warms the heart and all that jazz.

I've got some respect for all y'all.  Mad props to people I never really knew much personally about, like Kapus, Turbo, ice, Kage, Ceridran, Geno, Rui, and plenty more I can't list immediately without a list right in front of me.  Good on you.  Maybe I should chill around with you folks more often instead of lurking.

Merry Christmas all.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on December 26, 2014, 12:49:03 AM
I tend to feel really ostracized whenever I'm in a skype call.

It seems like I have to literally yell just to get myself heard and I feel bad when I do, cause I don't wanna hog attention, rather just be a part of the conversation..

It's probably just me being antisocial or somethin'.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: SmashTheEchidna on December 26, 2014, 01:05:24 AM
Is it because there's too many people talking at once, or can they just not hear you?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on December 26, 2014, 01:33:11 AM
Quote from: "Turbodude"
I tend to feel really ostracized whenever I'm in a skype call.

It seems like I have to literally yell just to get myself heard and I feel bad when I do, cause I don't wanna hog attention, rather just be a part of the conversation..

It's probably just me being antisocial or somethin'.

I honestly prefer smaller calls than the more bigger ones like in Tengu Chat or Freeman Chat.

Like, I have a lot of fun in those calls!!! Though smaller ones feel more easy to talk in.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on December 26, 2014, 01:40:34 AM
i can't even get in calls because i'm way way WAAY too insecure about my english
Title: GBT's Late Night Stream of Consciousness
Post by: Gumballtoid on December 29, 2014, 05:53:27 AM
Quote from: "Rui+"
I honestly prefer smaller calls than the more bigger ones like in Tengu Chat or Freeman Chat.
I find it amusing that the Tengu chat has grown so substantially since its beginnings in early 2012. It grew from a humble chat of 6 to a fairly active chat of 40. Calls in that chat used to average around 3 or 4 people, and now it's usually upwards of 11. Even so, we manage to have quiet, 5-person calls late at night, and on occasion, some pretty personal conversations.

I wasn't overly comfortable with a lot of the community back then. That was largely due to (I will concede) the way I conducted myself, but I failed to get that under control, and as a result, tended to feel isolated, without anyone to truly associate with. Now, I know everyone a lot better, and I feel as though I've found my niche in the community, and seeing just how much I've changed has impressed me. The steady growth of what I consider my "main chat" reflects that quite nicely.

I dunno, it was brought up and I felt like I needed to put that out there. Sometimes it helps to take a good look at yourself. In that way, I've learned to walk with a bit more of a backbone and not let my insecurities prevent me from functioning.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Nostalgia on January 07, 2015, 11:41:56 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on January 18, 2015, 01:12:10 AM
i feel very awkward in social situations, sometimes just a random person talking to me is enough to make me sweat a bit
thing is, sometimes i get TOO anxious and i have a hard time controlling it, it's even gotten as bad as to get panic attacks in public, which leaves me feeling like shit and most of the time unable to move or think rationally for like half an hour

i've been trying to get better though, but it feels like it's such an impossible thing
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on January 18, 2015, 03:36:34 AM
Hm, social anxiety. That's a really tough issue to tackle and I'm honestly not sure what kind of advice I could offer for it. I often feel uncomfortable in social situations (though a lot of that has to do with my gender identity), but it's definitely not severe and I wouldn't call it anxiety.

At the very least, don't feel bad for suffering from it! It's an issue that a lot of people have and it can be hard to overcome or even cope with it.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Geno on January 19, 2015, 01:34:27 PM
Yeah, I feel uncomfortable in those situations as well (most likely cuz of same reason as Kappy), but don't feel bad!

Even if you have social anxiety, that doesn't stop you from being a good person! Just, try to do your best!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on March 20, 2015, 02:04:21 PM
Sometimes when I chat, I'm about to say something but then I'm not sure if I really want to say it or if it's the best way to do so, and I end up saying nothing, which feels awkward.

The worse part is... That's been happening much more often recently.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on April 04, 2015, 11:49:10 PM
It's a bit hard for me to pinpoint why exactly, but I've felt very uncomfortable amongst most of the cutstuff community in recent times. I don't really like being around as much as I used to. It's kind of foggy in my head and I'm not sure exactly why I don't feel comfortable, but it's caused me to leave a few of the community's groups and be a little less active. I've been thinking a lot lately as to why I feel this way and I'm still not sure what the root cause is. I don't think it's entirely a personal issue--I don't really seem to have any serious beef with the people in this community individually, but when it comes to some parts of the community as a whole, I just do not feel good. Then again, there are a few people (I don't like to name names) that I've ended up doing my best to avoid as a result of this, so maybe it is a bit personal..?? I dunno.

This is all really fuzzy to me still and I'm having an awful time expressing this, but I think another part of it might have to do with my identity. I'm not sure what it is about it exactly, but I guess I don't feel happy being known as I am in cutstuff. I don't like how I'm currently seen. I'm not comfortable with my "reputation", whatever it may be. I think this is why I've been aliasing a lot when playing MM8BDM--an attempt to get away from my identity and reputation, and away from the eyes of a few people. I kinda realized that if I played the game without people immediately knowing who I was, I didn't feel as bad. Once again it's hard to pinpoint why exactly it is this way for me.


Ironically, I feel like I could have better explained and expressed this issue in myself if...I didn't feel so uncomfortable, haha. I feel like this post is kinda messy and poorly worded (which is kinda how it feels in my head), but I'm not sure what else to say.


yeah.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Bikdark on April 05, 2015, 01:35:06 AM
Considering Cutstuff has been relatively lifeless for the past 3 months, uncomfortableness and confusion is very understandable. Many people here probably feel out of place due to very little communication. Trust me, it isn't specific to you.  

Regarding your statement regarding your reputation here, why is that? You've committed no reprehensible actions, and have had nothing but a positive impact on the community.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on April 05, 2015, 02:11:26 AM
Quote from: "Kapus"
Then again, there are a few people (I don't like to name names) that I've ended up doing my best to avoid as a result of this, so maybe it is a bit personal..?? I dunno.
surely it's me[/size]

Quote from: "Kapus"
I think this is why I've been aliasing a lot when playing MM8BDM--an attempt to get away from my identity and reputation, and away from the eyes of a few people. I kinda realized that if I played the game without people immediately knowing who I was, I didn't feel as bad.
Unfortunately, most people who recognize you will still call you Kapus and not by the alias.

Quote from: "Bikdark"
Regarding your statement regarding your reputation here, why is that? You've committed no reprehensible actions, and have had nothing but a positive impact on the community.
I think that's exactly why. The high amount of attention recieved from positive impact on the community and other things could be too much to handle.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on April 05, 2015, 02:26:03 AM
As bikdark said, you have never done something wrong here and you are a very nice guy (who draw a lot of cute characters x3 ) anyways', so i dont understand the problem....maybe you are just anxious? I don't know...Maybe, it will pass with time :)
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on April 05, 2015, 02:44:52 AM
Quote from: "Bikdark"
Considering Cutstuff has been relatively lifeless for the past 3 months, uncomfortableness and confusion is very understandable. Many people here probably feel out of place due to very little communication. Trust me, it isn't specific to you.  
Thank you, but I don't think that actually has anything to do with why I feel bad. When I say "cutstuff community", I really mean the community as a whole, even outside the forum. The message board may be really slow, but there are still many active groups around skype and such where people of the community mingle. People also hang out in the servers nearly every day.

That's my fault though, I've been very bad at explaining my issue.

Quote from: "Bikdark"
Regarding your statement regarding your reputation here, why is that? You've committed no reprehensible actions, and have had nothing but a positive impact on the community.
Well...I'm not quite sure, haha. That's kind of the problem. It's a very strange feeling that I'm not sure how to put into words. I might know how to express it slightly, but I feel kind of uncomfortable elaborating further than I already have, I guess. I suppose I'll try since someone told me to be more confident in myself.

It's not so much that I feel guilty about anything regarding my reputation. But I guess I feel that...the majority of the community doesn't know me past the surface of my reputation and identity. I feel like there's a lot more to me than what most people know (and what most people do know probably isn't fully true anyway), but I don't feel comfortable showing much more of myself than I have. Like, I've been subtly suppressing myself a great deal and not being fully honest or true to myself as I would like. Part of that I think is because I feel that it clashes with my reputation--the surface that people do know of me--as it stands now? I guess? I'm confusing myself just trying to explain it.

When I go onto MM8BDM servers using an alias, I generally feel more comfortable because I feel like I can be myself as much as I want to be without being tied to my original identity or reputation and the things that go along with it.

Quote from: "Cerikeno"
Unfortunately, most people who recognize you will still call you Kapus and not by the alias.
Well, yeah, of course. And it doesn't help.

Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
you are a very nice guy
Thank you but please don't call me guy.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on April 05, 2015, 10:09:30 AM
Ah oook, i see, sorry ^^
I want say, be yourself and see but some people will tell you better than me.... [english fail]
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Shinryu on April 06, 2015, 04:34:26 AM
Oh hey, I'm still alive.

So then, I'm not really sure how to put this, but I really want to get out a few things that have been on my mind. Lately there's been a lot of up's and down's in my life (which has contributed to my absence in a lot of different communities). While I'm glad to have finally finished with my education and gotten my degree, there's also been a lot of other pressures going on in the background as well. Over the past winter, my house got hit hard with water damage due to the excessive amounts of snow. This basically lead to us having to strip down large portions of the walls due to water leaks that ruined the paint (and subsequently having to redo decent portions of rooms as well). Insurance should be able to cover it, but it was still a pretty bad experience overall. Even though I'm not with my family often, I still feel it's my responsibility to help out in times like that, and I've always been fearful that something bad might happen if I don't contribute (through finances or otherwise).

Through out all of this, I've also been slogging through my hobbies with making videos. Sometimes I turn to that as sort of a release where I can get my thoughts out when things are troubling me, but recently it seems like it hasn't been helping much (not to mention that I haven't gotten the chance to do much of it lately). While things might be looking up soon thanks to new position opportunities at my disposal, right now it feels like things have been lingering in a state of limbo, so to speak.
Title: might be a bit sloppy
Post by: Nostalgia on April 16, 2015, 03:57:06 AM
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Title: if i wasn't such an attention whore i'd leave without a trac
Post by: Max on June 02, 2015, 12:31:42 AM
Don't really feel like being here any more, I only come back to check the offtopic discussion and I don't really know why I bother
People say that this is more a community of friends than it is about the game, yeah well I love the game and I don't really have many friends here so I guess there's no purpose in staying
I mean that sounds melodramatic doesn't it? I left before, I only came back to work on XSP and then that stopped because nobody did some stupid pumpkin and I got too tired, moved out into other mods, went back to classes, worked on a fangame, all of those sort of burned out bar the last one which is just what I do in my spare time now really, and I don't even have any way to work on the actual coding I'm just a useless spriter
I'm very grateful for the two or three people I talk to very on-off and incredibly grateful to Mendez but he barely visits either and just idk, feels like I don't belong when there's barely anything going on with the actual game which is why I'm here
I still love to play classes TLMS but nothing else, no purpose in duel and I hate deathmatch and anything justified classes or unholy
So it's not a sad post really, just one of indifference
inspire certainly didn't help

tl;dr - feel really unwelcome and lonely (probably because i'm such an ass), no point being here
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: CDRom11_2007 on June 02, 2015, 02:30:07 AM
I just... I just don't know what to say... I mean, another one of the big people is planning to leave. This feeling is kinda how I felt when Uki left, or when Ivory left. I felt like the 8BDM community/game couldn't exist without them; like the game was a part of them. "They can't leave, they just can't" I used to say to myself, but yet it happened. To me, it felt like someone like Korby left, or Kapus left, or heck, I felt like friggin' CutmanMike left. Yet, I still think to myself "They can't leave, they just can't" even thought I know very well that we all will have to move on one day, including me (and how I loath the day that will happen).

If it makes you feel any better, I always looked up to the coders in the community. They live a dream I can only, well, dream of doing: being able to code whatever you want, almost whenever you want. I always had this this high idea of coders where "Coders are the greatest problem solvers this world has, and it's these same people that have the power to move the world into a new, brighter future; a new future of technology and freedom". Of course, that made me always want to be a coder, more specifically a game coder when I grow up. Sadly, the last chance of that ever happening is lost, and now I'm stuck on the path my parents choose for of becoming a Doctor, the last thing I ever want to be. The worst part is that I now refuse to learn coding (Or at least continue from my basic knowledge of coding) because I know I will never have time for it in the future anyways. When you come from a family of pretty much only Doctors, you realize how much hell it is to become one, and after you become one, and trust me when I say it's a LOT of hell.

Sorry for gushing like that. Bottom line, I want you to know that at least I want to make you feel welcome. Not just that, but I look up to Max, not just for being a coder, but because of the whole 'Coming out about being a girl" thing. That took a lot of strength, strength I know a guy like me can only wish to have..
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on June 02, 2015, 03:19:48 AM
I think you'll always be wecome here, Maxine. Just don't forget mm8bdm exists and you can play if you really feel like it.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: LlamaHombre on June 02, 2015, 09:46:31 AM
I will personally always welcome you regardless of whether you're here or not. You really are a great person and I feel if a couple of others would be more willing to peel past a couple of perspective layers, you'd probably feel less the way you do.

That said if you ever feel like talking to me a little more, please don't be shy! I always like our little chats here and there.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Magnet Dood on June 03, 2015, 08:54:15 PM
I don't enjoy being here anymore.

This isn't a reaction to my rather poor start in the duel tournament, as that would be awfully melodramatic and pretty stupid. It's been going on for the last couple of months or so, and my current skill in the game is only one part of a pretty large conglomeration of issues that I've had with myself and my current presence here (a large part of it, to be sure, but not the only one). When I first got here, this was more or less the only place where I really felt like I fit in- my junior high years were pretty terrible and traumatic, so this was a sort of sanctuary that I could retreat to where people liked me, and I could like myself.

Nowadays the second part isn't true. I find that I'm constantly beating myself up for my shortcomings when it comes to pretty much everything I've tried or done around here. For all intents and purposes, my Cutstuff career can be summed up as a failure. I have presided over countless failed projects, large and small, I've ignored or refused to help others around here when I'm perfectly capable of doing so, I'm unable to improve my MM8BDM skills against good competition, etc. To be honest I can only think of one thing that I actually finished my entire time I've been here, which was a map for the Finish That Map 2 competition (a map that ended up in the middle of the pack, but that's somewhat ancillary). It's all part of a crippling inferiority complex that I've suffered from ever since those aforementioned junior years, where I believed that wasn't good enough for everyone else. This thinking only makes me angry and depressed to the point where I detest certain members of the community; not because of any action that has come at my expense, but simply because they remind me of something that I believe I will never be able to reach while I'm here. I'm a rather mediocre, middle-of-the-road person, with no real fit inside of this community. I like to think that I don't hurt Cutstuff's well-being by staying here, but I'm almost certain that I don't help it, and that it wouldn't suffer any drastic blow if I was to leave, unlike other members of the community who have shown that they are proficient and useful through their success.

If I'm being perfectly honest, the entire situation is of my own fault, as I was constantly dabbling in new things that the community had to offer without having much of an intention to focus on one thing. All of my half-baked efforts were simply a product of my endless ambition and dwindling motivation as time wears on. I've tried everything and haven't succeeded in anything, tried to fit in everywhere and eventually finding that I don't fit in anywhere. Frankly, I don't relish the idea of severing ties with Cutstuff very much; I've met plenty of great people here that I can credit with being true friends during a long, dark time a few years ago. If I were to stay, then I'd probably just forget about the entire reason why I'm upset in a few days or a week and continue with my normal existence here. But I don't want these ideas to resurface later when I hit a similar low point, nor do I want my anger to continue to reach unhealthy levels as they are right now. I'd leave right now, but that would only make me shirk a number of commitments which would make me even more of a failure than I already am (CSA2, commentating, duel tournament, etc.), which wouldn't make me any happier.

I just don't see the purpose of me staying here anymore, and as hard as all this is to say, it's not something I can keep in for very long. I'm unimportant and unskilled, and have most likely overstayed my welcome- as a result, my presence here is tenuous. As I said, I don't enjoy the thought of leaving, but I've noticed that my former sanctuary for escaping my dark thoughts only seems to be a place where they can return.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on June 03, 2015, 10:02:49 PM
Quote from: "Magnet Dood"
I've ignored or refused to help others around here when I'm perfectly capable of doing so, I'm unable to improve my MM8BDM skills against good competition, etc. To be honest I can only think of one thing that I actually finished my entire time I've been here, which was a map for the Finish That Map 2 competition (a map that ended up in the middle of the pack, but that's somewhat ancillary).

I don't think that says anything about you as a person. Even if you were capable of helping others, you probably weren't in the mood to do so or were busy, which is alright. Even though you are under no obligation to help others (not saying you shouldn't since it is a very nice gesture), you can always redirect them to someone who can help in your place.

Not finishing things doesn't mean you're bad or anything. I'm pretty sure a lot of us started our own stuff but never finished on them. Starting things and finishing them is something that requires practice. You probably won't finish it the first time, or the second time, or the third time. That doesn't mean that it won't ever be done, though. There are plenty of chances to continue things, and you learn to manage it better the more you do it.

Quote from: "Magnet Dood"
It's all part of a crippling inferiority complex that I've suffered from ever since those aforementioned junior years, where I believed that wasn't good enough for everyone else. This thinking only makes me angry and depressed to the point where I detest certain members of the community; not because of any action that has come at my expense, but simply because they remind me of something that I believe I will never be able to reach while I'm here. I'm a rather mediocre, middle-of-the-road person, with no real fit inside of this community.

You don't really need to prove yourself to anyone. If you have fun mapping or creating projects, then I say go do it anyway. I refuse to see you as mediocre. I can't really speak as far as 8BDM projects go (since I am guilty of never going anywhere beyond Anything Goes and thus I am totally unaware of plenty of stuff that has to do with the game), but I always loved reading your writing and your roleplaying is absolutely fantastic.

Quote from: "Magnet Dood"
I like to think that I don't hurt Cutstuff's well-being by staying here, but I'm almost certain that I don't help it, and that it wouldn't suffer any drastic blow if I was to leave, unlike other members of the community who have shown that they are proficient and useful through their success.

As for myself, I can say for sure that if you left I would indeed miss you. However, once again, you don't really need to prove yourself to anyone. I'm positive people here enjoy your company.

Quote from: "Magnet Dood"
I'm unimportant and unskilled

I highly disagree. I'd say you are skilled (especially in the writing field) and that you do hold importance to a number of people around here.

I'm sorry if my advice isn't as helpful (I haven't written advice for a long time and I kinda feel bad for that.), but one thing I know is that you don't give yourself enough credit, Dood. I'm positive your talents will mean something to someone.

I definitely think you're a great person, personally.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Gumballtoid on June 03, 2015, 11:11:31 PM
This is totally spur of the moment and it probably doesn't flow well, but I feel the need to say this, so just bear with me.

I can totally relate to that feeling of inadequacy when stacked up against other members of the community -- there are a number of folks I find myself wishing I could even somewhat compare to, though I won't name any names. I try to keep in mind who I am and what I'm good at, and frankly, as long as I've got my own niche to fill, I'm totally fine with feeling envious at times. I've said it before, but I've learned to walk with a backbone these past few years and not let my own shortcomings prevent me from being happy with who I am, and that's something I would have killed to have back during my middle school years.

You've got your own niche to fill, too. I've always seen you as the "up and at 'em" kind of fella, wanting to be productive and boasting an appreciation for things that others wouldn't give a second thought to -- someone talks shit about Ruby-Spears Mega Man and you pounce on them like that. Even if your two expansions are just gathering dust, it's more due to the fact very few people, if any, have been willing to lend a hand, and that stems from the fact that DOS and RM&F2 are among the most unappreciated Mega Man games to date (that doesn't mean it's without reason, but that's beside the point). Don't be so quick to blame yourself for that -- one guy can't finish an entire expansion (read: 9 maps, 9 weapons, 10+ skins, campaign, boss, etc.) on his own, let alone one of quality. You're a capable spriter, a promising mapper, and quite an enthralling writer. I appreciate you for what you bring to the table, rather than rejecting you for what you don't, and I think it'd be noticeably different around here without you if you up and disappeared on us.
Title: I've got nothing to lose
Post by: Gummywormz on June 04, 2015, 01:06:46 AM
I agree that this community is like a group of friends, but not in a good way. There (at least in my day) were basically two core groups: the "cool" kids and the people the cool kids hated. If you didn't fit in with either: you were screwed.

I feel like I can't get back into the community because of my past. I was a dumb teen (as a few of us were at the time), and didn't exactly make the most "quality" stuff. I really do want to go back into modding because I had some ideas and wanted to "go back to my roots" as a programmer (and frankly the game could use a few new things). But I feel my reputation as "that idiot who made LMSGames / MMU Classes / hosted bad maps" would instantly get anything I even tried to push out ignored. And because I feel that way, I can't effectively begin to disprove that. It's a vicious cycle.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on June 04, 2015, 02:16:16 AM
Quote from: "Magnet Dood"
I just don't see the purpose of me staying here anymore, and as hard as all this is to say, it's not something I can keep in for very long. I'm unimportant and unskilled, and have most likely overstayed my welcome- as a result, my presence here is tenuous. As I said, I don't enjoy the thought of leaving, but I've noticed that my former sanctuary for escaping my dark thoughts only seems to be a place where they can return.

I'm really sorry you feel this way, Dood. I know that negativity can creep up on you and make you feel absolutely horrible, but I think you should breathe for a minute here. You are NOT unimportant and unskilled, quite the contrary. You're a trusted member of this community, and I can say that you would definitely be missed if you left. As far as the latter complaint goes, we all have our own set of skills and talents, and what's important is that you don't develop this sense of relativity and ranking with it. Comparing yourself to others and making a long list of what you aren't will only leave you feeling empty at the end of the day.
Also wingman is god tier in csa2

@Gummywormz you're right to an extent about how some groups can be exclusive, but there are ways you can redeem people's trust in you.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Orange juice :l on June 04, 2015, 02:24:58 AM
Gummy makes a good point. This community was not founded on ideals that make for long-term stability.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Dr. Freeman on June 04, 2015, 02:39:36 AM
run away the community is dying again
Title: the end is nigh, give your soul to mr. skeltal
Post by: Korby on June 04, 2015, 02:44:41 AM
OJ, I'd say we've held out pretty well so far considering it's been 5 years and you've been saying the game is going to die "soon" for around two of those years now.
But that's a different conversation.

Gummy, I dunno about other people, but I really don't care about how you acted in the past [partially because I don't remember]. If you make something new and good, I'll play it. Simple as that. Gopher it, man.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on June 04, 2015, 03:17:43 AM
@Magnet Dood: I was gonna make a post responding to the things you said in detail, but Rui pretty much stole the words from my mouth (I can always count on him). I Do want to add though, personally, that I've always found you to be a super neat and super fun guy and you've been one of my favorite members of the community. I rather regret not being a closer friend to you and I'd be pretty darn upset to see you leave.

@Gumballtoid: You're rad and a blast to hang out with, just remember that

@Gummywormz: You're very much correct about the community segregation, but honestly I think the community as mostly moved past that by this point. There are still a couple of people (won't name any names) who seem to go about putting others down for the sake of a laugh, but for the most part people are much more open and accepting now.

@Maxine: I love you and wish we could hang out more often. : (


oh yeah and I'm pretty chill about that issue I had with myself that I posted earlier. Is all good now, though I do still occasionally have periods of wanting to break away from my identity.


<3 you all, stay happy
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 04, 2015, 03:47:05 AM
" There are still a couple of people (won't name any names) who seem to go about putting others down for the sake of a laugh, but for the most part people are much more open and accepting now." by Kapus.

I want the names because it's weird, i have the same feeling, i wont name any names too. I posted enough of this problem here: viewtopic.php?f=9&t=2040&start=20700 (http://www.cutstuff.net/forum/viewtopic.php?f=9&t=2040&start=20700)
And yeah, if people didnt take things so seriously and an intellectual way, maybe there wont be so much problematic melodrama....

Personally, i want just play this fangame mode of doom but when i see how i was trolled in the duel server and nobody called a kick or ban for this "?" guy, seriously.
Moderator and others need to do their work!
I Would want play a game without read a lot of complains or agressive things no-stop when they can post the "problems" of a mode or others in the forum (it's made for, right?).

Better to bash a guy who try to have some friends (because he feel lonely and hated) than bash the people who try to make him crazy sad. But yeah, it's the rules of the groups, it's FUN.
It's so FUN to critic something when a big PART of the group HATE IT YET (even without know how was really this guy). Some people can do some miss, but remember, nobody is totaly bad, sometimes, they can have a bad period, just try to be more diplomatic.

Better to give a warning to a guy who posted 1 word (because it was 1 word about laughing) in a post than give a warning to a guy who post some HITLER STUFF because he loves him WHEN you have (certainly) some people who can be judaist or black in this forum, but this guy is liked by some admins, so yeah, here is the problem, everything started like that.

If the moderator dont do their work (the admins too), a community can become crazy quickly with a lot of drama, and then die.

Better to admit, nobody is perfect and some people need to work more on the aftermath of their acts. But if you are shocked, just forget it'.
And like nobody want admit They did some miss, it wont become better if there isnt some apologies.

Anyways, I wont say ANY NAMES. Better to be hide behind a curtain.

Next episode soon

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Title: this is really an ugly post
Post by: Red on June 04, 2015, 03:20:50 PM
As a person that often "seems to go about putting others down for the sake of a laugh" I feel like I should say this

Reading Dood's post, it seems really... silly, to me, at least, I mean, looking at it, "My Cutstuff career can just be summed up as a failure"?

I get that you're tired of wanting to do things and not going along with them, I believe I wouldn't be wrong when I say that this is something most of must've gone through at some point, but that doesn't mean anything at all, if you keep beating yourself up just because you lost motivation and couldn't do some project you wanted to do for the game, you'll unevitably end up like this every time, and it doesn't just apply to your "Cutstuff career", you can't just go around life beating yourself up because of tiny failures! If it didn't work, dang, that's a shame, move on, and that's it! Besides, you should do these things not forcing yourself to do them, like you probably do at some point, but instead, do them because you like them and have fun with them! If you spent a long time working on a project that ended up as a failure, it's alright, it doesn't matter, if you had fun then it wasn't a waste of time.

The problem I see with you is that you're not having fun and you're not moving on after your so called "failures", and frankly, I don't think leaving or severing ties with Cutstuff will help you at all, mainly because of this

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I've met plenty of great people here that I can credit with being true friends during a long, dark time a few years ago.
If you've met plenty of great people here, and as you saw in the cute posts that came before this ugly one I'm writing right now, a lot of people like you and don't think of you as badly as you think you are, at all.

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If I were to stay, then I'd probably just forget about the entire reason why I'm upset in a few days or a week and continue with my normal existence here. But I don't want these ideas to resurface later when I hit a similar low point

If you don't want these ideas of yours to come back later to slap you and throw you to the ground later, then change your way of thinking! If you keep thinking that you're worthless because you couldn't do a project or anything, you won't get anywhere else other than a low point again! Think about how ridiculous it is, I mean, you're worthless or unskilled or unimportant because you couldn't do an expansion to some game? Things aren't as simple as that!

You need to stop thinking that "failing" makes you a bad, worthless, or unskilled person. Sure, at some points we all wish we were as good as Ivory when it comes to mapping or leading, or were as good as Kapus when it comes to making great sprites, or were as good as whoever you look up to, but it doesn't matter anyway because you aren't them, you're you and that's what matters, comparing yourself to others all of the time won't get you anywhere, maybe you should start comparing to yourself, and try to look up at yourself instead!

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I'm a rather mediocre, middle-of-the-road person
I am too, and there's nothing wrong with that, because as long as you enjoy doing something, whether it is mapping, playing, coding, spriting, whatevering, it's okay to fail, it's alright to be "worthless" or a "failure", daijobu daijobu, it's gonna be okay.

___________________________

and now since Stonefunk seems fixated on the morbid idea of having names of people who just "troll others" (what is this, 2009?) I can say that I'm one of those people that like teasing others for a few laughs

now deciphering your post is kind of a surreal experience but I'm trying my best here

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I Would want play a game without read a lot of complains or agressive things no-stop when they can post the "problems" of a mode or others in the forum (it's made for, right?)
You can't just say what people can say and what they can't say, if you want to play the game without reading others' commentary, then either don't pay attention to them, or mute them, F8, people, F8.

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Better to bash a guy who try to have some friends (because he feel lonely and hated) than bash the people who try to make him crazy sad. But yeah, it's the rules of the groups, it's FUN.
It's so FUN to critic something when a big PART of the group HATE IT YET (even without know how was really this guy). Some people can do some miss, but remember, nobody is totaly bad, sometimes, they can have a bad period, just try to be more diplomatic.
I think that you might be just exaggerating this part, maybe Cutstuff was this way in the past, and I myself remember enjoying teasing the shit out of people like zerox daniel or that one guy named lad, but these days this kind of thing doesn't happen as much, as far as I know, and the way you've written it, you make it seem as if criticism is a bad thing, which is not in the slightest.

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Better to give a warning to a guy who posted 1 word (because it was 1 word about laughing) in a post than give a warning to a guy who post some HITLER STUFF because he loves him WHEN you have (certainly) some people who can be judaist or black in this forum, but this guy is liked by some admins, so yeah, here is the problem, everything started like that.
Now this is a complaint directed to the mods, apparently? I know the moderating and rules on cutstuff aren't top notch but they certainly do their job, taking a look at the rules, 1 word unsensical posts are seen as not sane and unnecessary, but "a guy who post some HITLER STUFF because he loves him" is just a guy's personal opinion, you don't know for sure if it's just an edgy joke especially directed to insult or offend jewish or black people, or if the guy is actually a lover of adolf hitler, either way, free speech, you can't just shut that down.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 04, 2015, 04:54:52 PM
F8 or better to ban ? I dont like when the atmosphere is killed, specially by this guy who trolled me in the duel server, or the guy who spam "desynchro this classe gniiiii it sucks" no-stop.
Cutstuff is always like that, even now. Nobody is innocent there. ( you are back since some weeks, right?)
For Hitler, its not good if some judaist or others people see that, maybe you see that like a joke, but it's not funny actually, some people can be hurt by that.
I think You dont realize how the bad acts can be taken by some other people...not only by the group of friends. ;)
But yeah, there is some favoritism anyway..... <3
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on June 04, 2015, 05:07:15 PM
The difference is, saying "I like X" is way different than "I hate X", whether saying "I like X" is just expressing yourself and your views or whatever, if you're offended by "I like X" then you could just talk it out and shit instead of just being all passive aggresive
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on June 04, 2015, 05:20:16 PM
Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
F8 or better to ban ? I dont like when the atmosphere is killed, specially by this guy who trolled me in the duel server, or the guy who spam "desynchro this classe gniiiii it sucks" no-stop.
Cutstuff is always like that, even now. Nobody is innocent there. ( you are back since some weeks, right?)
For Hitler, its not good if some judaist or others people see that, maybe you see that like a joke, but it's not funny actually, some people can be hurt by that.
I think You dont realize how the bad acts can be taken by some other people...not only by the group of friends. ;)
But yeah, there is some favoritism anyway..... <3

You're comparing two entirely different scopes of severity here. The list of differences between a typical troll and a murderous dictator goes on for miles., I might have misread this... my bad. Truth be told, your grammar makes it hard to understand what you're saying.


I don't mean to sound callous, but try not to take everything personally. That's exactly how the trolls want you to react anyway. Every time you make a post complaining about it, it only encourages them to continue. It's easier for people to victimize someone who constantly cries victim.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 05, 2015, 09:06:20 AM
Quote from: "Red"
The difference is, saying "I like X" is way different than "I hate X", whether saying "I like X" is just expressing yourself and your views or whatever, if you're offended by "I like X" then you could just talk it out and shit instead of just being all passive aggresive
Manichean spotted (i joke)
Sometimes, a hater can have more convictions than a person who like everything, you know right?
I prefer a guy who insult a hypocrit (where the hater is a good guy) than a guy who use some social NiCe way to critic an other guy. Appearance si foolish.
But it does nothing with the Hitler" problem (or others).  Again, this kind of post can hurt Judaist people who are fan of megaman (and i know some of them who are judaist....or black).
It seems, not a lot of people take things seriously like IT MUST BE.
Some people talk with fun in their crazyness. Just keep seriously the important things who must be "protected".
For jman, i dont care......but when the troll becomes very very agressive like no-stop, even if you try to ignore him, it can becomes really dirty and start to be a pain, like an alienation......
Anyway, communautarism is always a thing in a lot of forums. Just too bad it's the same here.
Title: Amazing technicolor post
Post by: Jman on June 05, 2015, 10:35:53 PM
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Sometimes, a hater can have more convictions than a person who like everything, you know right?
You were faced with the subject of passive aggression. You keep backpedaling and responding with irrelevant statements like this.
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I prefer a guy who insult a hypocrit (where the hater is a good guy) than a guy who use some social NiCe way to critic an other guy. Appearance si foolish.
You're unclear on both points here, especially on the second example. What do you mean by some "social NiCe way to critic an other guy"? By the way, great spelling.
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But it does nothing with the Hitler" problem (or others).  Again, this kind of post can hurt Judaist people who are fan of megaman (and i know some of them who are judaist....or black).
I'm not defending the kind of people you're ragging on about here, but you should realize that they're doing this just for cheap laughs. They just want attention in the form of long rants.
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It seems, not a lot of people take things seriously like IT MUST BE.
There's a difference between taking something seriously and blowing it out of proportion.
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For jman, i dont care......but when the troll becomes very very agressive like no-stop, even if you try to ignore him, it can becomes really dirty and start to be a pain, like an alienation......
I'm just trying to help. People will stop picking on you if you can show a little composure.
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Anyway, communautarism is always a thing in a lot of forums. Just too bad it's the same here.
"Communautarism" isn't a word, I think you're looking for "Communitarianism". Maybe because a forum IS a community, after all.
Title: Hil: An enemy to society or a man who left his mark?
Post by: Hilman170499 on June 06, 2015, 06:35:19 AM
Hey guys. It's me again. If you're not with the well-known regulars of this community, you might not understand my situation.
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Admittedly, I didn't do my best at wording this speech out.

BLUE FOR DAYS!!!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 12, 2015, 07:07:43 AM
"Communautarism" isn't a word, I think you're looking for "Communitarianism". Maybe because a forum IS a community, after all. => i suppose i must follow the path of this forum anyway....

Well, i try to get a job (again and again), i have already a payment for my handicap (around 1100$ without fees things or others) but i would prefer a work, i could get more money...and prepare the "after 65years" better (when you stop to work, you get a payment because you worked all your life).
It's complicate....because i dont have any diploma.....just stopped at 18 years around.....
But there is so much job who could make me crazy xD Like seller in a market, manager of the meal in the supermarket ......or clean the city because dogs poop on it...yeah all the jobs are important, but really, i dont feel lt like that, when you see the women.....who prefer a man specially because he is a doctor too....
Well maybe if i try to get some little jobs, i could get a better one later?.... i will see.

EDIT: Well, i get a meeting for a job(social thing) but they prefer take people who have a diploma even if it's informatic or medical......for a little social thing.....what the hell......They can take me, but i will really less paid because i dont have a big diploma (just the basic one :/ ) pfffff Dat civilization make me crazy..... :/ (and when you see how much tax You need to pay each month in France..... well.. :/ )
Anyway, im happy about my "payment allocation for handicap." in a way...... :X Freeeeeedooooom //SLAP
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Nostalgia on July 06, 2015, 12:18:25 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on July 06, 2015, 01:29:00 AM
I totally enjoy your company and talking to you is a blast. I'm just super bad at approaching others since I'm usually unsure of what to talk about to begin with (I'd also like to do stuff like play games more you and other folks more but lack of a good computer and my current situation makes it rather difficult)
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Caprice on July 06, 2015, 01:49:17 AM
I agree with Rui in how I'm not quite good at starting conversations or really socializing well in my part, but your presence is always appreciated!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Russel on July 06, 2015, 02:25:09 AM
Quote from: "Nostalgia"
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Oookay.
I need to say that I legit cannot find a single thing wrong with you. I appreciate some of your tastes and I like talking with you about music and you introduced me to what might now be my favorite vintage FPS game.
I think you're a great person and while I completely understand your insecurities, maybe that just means you haven't quite found the people who get you on the same level as you yet, but I have always felt you were a pleasant person to be around and I honestly would have never guessed you would have had such insecurities.

I hope you find a way to gather yourself. Don't be afraid to speak up if you have any issues you feel you can't resolve silently.
Hell, if you feel the need to talk, come talk to me. I'd be willing to pay you heeds and help you out in any way I can.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Gumballtoid on July 06, 2015, 04:06:15 AM
I know that feeling more than I can say, but based on experience, it's not really something you should worry about too much. Folks rarely approach me for anything unless I join a mapping competition or a duel tournament, and I'm perfectly okay with that. I've come up with a sort of rule or method or whatever you wanna call it: I don't actively approach others in an attempt to elicit approval, but I'm always around and willing to listen if folks approach me. There's only around 2 people that I regularly carry out private, albeit brief, conversations with.

I can't say I've ever had a problem with you, but at the same time, I don't really know you well either. On a similar note to Caprice's sentiment, I like having folks like that hanging around here. Even though I don't know you well, others seem to like your company, so I'm not about to throw rocks at you or anything.
Title: funny because I usually feel like ure the one putting up wit
Post by: Red on July 06, 2015, 04:47:27 AM
ian I love u as much as it is possible without it becoming gay and you know im always gonna be good with u thats all ily bb xoxoxoxo ??????????????
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on July 06, 2015, 06:24:22 AM
I could make a post here but it'd basically be exactly what Gumballtoid said

So I'll just put a ^ pointing towards gumball's post or something

Quote from: "Gumballtoid"
I know that feeling more than I can say, but based on experience, it's not really something you should worry about too much. Folks rarely approach me for anything unless I join a mapping competition or a duel tournament, and I'm perfectly okay with that. I've come up with a sort of rule or method or whatever you wanna call it: I don't actively approach others in an attempt to elicit approval, but I'm always around and willing to listen if folks approach me. There's only around 2 people that I regularly carry out private, albeit brief, conversations with.

I can't say I've ever had a problem with you, but at the same time, I don't really know you well either. On a similar note to Caprice's sentiment, I like having folks like that hanging around here. Even though I don't know you well, others seem to like your company, so I'm not about to throw rocks at you or anything.
^
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Galactan on July 06, 2015, 07:54:33 AM
I can also reflect Gumball's sentiments.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 06, 2015, 09:33:37 AM
Why do you have some anxiety ? It's weird, not like if you acted bad against the others....try to find by yourself why you feel that really...but i think, you dont have anything to give to the others, enjoy your life for you.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on July 06, 2015, 04:16:29 PM
I felt that way for the longest time, Nos; especially when I was new to some of the bigger skype groups. You'll shake it off soon; try not to let it get you down.
Title: I start like all my sentences with "I" and that worries me
Post by: Nostalgia on July 07, 2015, 02:47:01 AM
Alright, thanks for all the support, guys. I can't really word this too well, but I just tend to forget that people can show appreciation in a more indirect manner and it's good to know that we've all got each other's backs here.
Title:
Post by: Orange juice :l on July 07, 2015, 05:50:18 AM
Quote from: "Nostalgia"
it's good to know that we've all got each other's backs here.

I was tastefully withholding any comments about how hugboxy this thread has been as of late (esp the last page or so) but I read this line with some alternative tones and I just lost it man
Title: Re:
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 08, 2015, 07:56:20 AM
Quote from: "Orange juice :l"
Quote from: "Nostalgia"
it's good to know that we've all got each other's backs here.

I was tastefully withholding any comments about how hugboxy this thread has been as of late (esp the last page or so) but I read this line with some alternative tones and I just lost it man

+1 It's really weird sometimes in this topic.
They can always be helped by a psychiatrist x)
(yeah, i needed a psychiatrist when i was schizophrenic in 2002-2005.... like some emotions you can't control because you feel weird with a lot of anxiety...if it's the problem, you can try some medecine.....if it's a social little problem, i dont understand....It looks people there, take the things like complicate...i don't know why....
People, try to explain what what is your problem exactly?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: DoomManFTW on July 08, 2015, 04:56:04 PM
Remember what I said in another topic about my brother wanting me to play LOL instead of games like this?Mostly because...*sigh*...

I easily mess up my words,in the case of talking with my mom or brother,I literally sometimes just say the english translation of what I want to say cause the words or the expression do not come in my mind fast enough, I do not like certain stuff most people do,sometimes I just seem to act downright stupid and I do not have friends.Not that people hate me,but we just talk,not do stuff toghether or anything.
While the games I play are easy to pick up and play,my brother wants me to play LOL mostly cause it takes a lot of thinking,and he wants to test my mind and make it better that way.

And with all of that,I am 15...
Title: Re:
Post by: Kapus on July 09, 2015, 03:56:43 PM
Quote from: "Orange juice :l"
Quote from: "Nostalgia"
it's good to know that we've all got each other's backs here.

I was tastefully withholding any comments about how hugboxy this thread has been as of late (esp the last page or so) but I read this line with some alternative tones and I just lost it man
I can kind of see what you mean, but I also kinda think that's inevitable to some extent when a lot of the people here are growing teens with naturally similar growing teen problems.

There's been some genuine advice and development in this topic still so I think it's all good!
Title: Thank you for making this thread.
Post by: BiscuitSlash on July 09, 2015, 07:54:07 PM
Wow, surprised I've managed to completely overlook this thread for 2 years.

Eh, I feel like I could say a few things. First off, I am completely unaware of why I am even still here to post this. I often return here to look at certain threads for updates, but really, is there any point to me still being here? I rarely play MM8BDM anymore due to the lack of populated servers that I want to join, and I'm no longer in any social Skype groups for CutStuff (nearly 2 years ago I left Tengu's chat. To avoid an uproar I won't say why). I really don't know what it compelling me to keep on going to this forum and I really want someone to tell me.

Another thing I want to say is that despite how much of a good time I've had here and how many people I technically have gotten along really well with, I've never actually had a sense of feeling truly welcomed. I've often had the impression that I'm hated on by most people here, yet when I actually think about who and how many fit that category, not a lot of people here really dislike me that much. Maybe it's just a few people standing out and some others that I've never been certain of them being a friend or enemy, but yeah overall, never felt as if I'm a widely liked person around here despite the fact that I've never gone out of my way to deliberately be irritating or hurtful to others.

Maybe it'll be worth rejoining that Skype group that I was part of, but at the same time, I'd probably just get a lot of backlash and consequently making rejoining pointless to begin with.

I've also never confirmed my real life age or real life name. I'm obviously not 7 years old, that's a given, but I've never once said my real age anywhere here. Similar thing goes for my name. Most if not all people here would assume that my real name would be Michael, seeing as my previous online name was Michael712. Truth is, I never at any point said what my real life name is, and I only went by that username for so long because I really like how "My-call-Seh-ven-won-too" sounds (yes, that's how it's pronounced), along with how the name "Michael" and how "712" look when put together. I could go ahead and say both my name and age right now, but for whatever I get minor self amusement by needlessly keeping it a secret, so will stay a secret for awhile longer.
Title: this probably isnt the case for u
Post by: Red on July 10, 2015, 06:37:10 PM
i'm kinda in a similar situation since i don't play 8bdm at all and i'm not in any skype groups
but the main reason i keep returning here is probably because I feel too lonely
Title: Re: this probably isnt the case for u
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 11, 2015, 03:28:06 AM
Quote from: "Red"
i'm kinda in a similar situation since i don't play 8bdm at all and i'm not in any skype groups
but the main reason i keep returning here is probably because I feel too lonely

It seems, a lot of people are like that in the forum, it's why there is this kind of atmosphere.....
I still dont understand why people seem so anxious here, it's just a forum for a fangame....maybe go outside to find some real friends?

For friends, skype/fb is enough for me, i dont need really it (my friends are more my freedom+videogames (:
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ivory on July 11, 2015, 05:18:46 AM
I can understand what that is like. Even when I wasn't doing anything for MM8BDM period, or in any chats other than lurking the vanilla dev chat. I still found myself keeping tabs on this place. But, I'm still an admin here so that should be expected. But, I wasn't really coming here because I enjoyed it, but more because I still feel obligated to fulfill my duty to my old life.

But that is a thing, right? Life always changes, moves on and opens a new chapter upon closure of another.

As for my new direction in life, I've been hanging out with friends and working full time as a car detailer at a Chevrolet/Buick/GMC dealership and I've been enjoying it. Enjoying it a lot more than when I went to college for three years to make websites and manage servers. Even if the pay is crap by comparison, I'm slowly moving my way up the ladder. I still dream about making an original video game, but part of me questions if I will ever find the motivation to go forward with it. For now, I'm fine with doing odds and ends for MM8BDM's new dev team. I don't intend to do much, but V5 is going to be seeing two new DM maps from me + Light Labs work. So that's cool. I'm mostly hyped for Gloome, since making something in my favorite engine would be pretty killer.

What bugs me most however is that some days I feel a strong disconnect from most of the people I used to frequently talk to in my MM8BDM days. Good friends slipping through my fingers like I was trying to keep water cupped in my hands. Yet, I also accept this fact. I've dealt with it countless times before. Some days I just feel like purging my skype list of most of the contacts, but I'm still the admin here, what if someone needs to contact me more personally? What if someone decides to strike up a conversation with me after all this time? Should I really remove someones ability to do that? What if I want to do that? But when I try, maybe we get a small exchange and nothing more.

I wasn't planning on saying all of this, but it is important to remember that no matter what happens in your life, never hold regrets, learn the lessons, and take them with you to the next chapter.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 13, 2015, 06:56:33 AM
I still dont understand why some people who seem to want to be adult, try to push some alone people in the madness (like Freakgamer & Musashi duel in the tchat of TLMS classes).
Seriously guy, you wont win if you act like some people who want "follow us or die", it's really bad, when i say, some people there want to put a communitarianism in this forum, it's not false.
Just ignore the people You don't like instead of troll them because they are alone and nervous, it's not really a way to act like an adult (but maybe because a lot of people are kid there but i think You could do some efforts on it).
Anyway, not like if i care, but i think, it's pretty sad.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on July 13, 2015, 07:22:37 AM
i want to say two things that won't contribute to anything and are completely unnecessary

1.-if you didn't care you wouldn't post it, much less say names
2.- your posts are poetry
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 13, 2015, 07:27:24 AM
Actually, i dont like to be hide or protected behind a group, if i must say the things, i say it directly, without cowardice.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on July 13, 2015, 07:44:15 AM
then adress them directly instead of posting it in a public post or something

like, the way i "interpret" it, your post is just a personal issue you have with them
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 13, 2015, 07:53:05 AM
Quote from: "Red"
then adress them directly instead of posting it in a public post or something

like, the way i "interpret" it, your post is just a personal issue you have with them

Well, not really, it just to wake up more than them, because a lot of people act like it..... I dont care but i think it' sad for the megaman community, to see that.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Orange juice :l on July 13, 2015, 07:55:31 AM
As he said and has been implied, these people tend to make personal issues an issue with the entire community which just tends to escalate conflicts.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 13, 2015, 08:04:57 AM
Quote from: "Orange juice :l"
As he said and has been implied, these people tend to make personal issues an issue with the entire community which just tends to escalate conflicts.

I dont understand what you mean? Some people talk with their """heart""", i talk with my brain only. (emotion are superficial in debate anyways).

I just try to tell to people to act better with people they dont like, i was trolled since 2012 (because tourney, everything, cheap story) yeah but i never tried to do something wrong, when everyone is against you, you are sad and then you can be nervous and act with an agressive way.....not worse than people who try to push the others away.

Just try to understand people, i dont try to put a flame war or something, just, you need to understand the problem in your side too. The others are not the only one who must understand....

Funny OJ, from a guy who tried to push me away from the community (with Bluebrawl) in the past, i dont care anymore,i just said that because the way Musashi acted with freakgamer, need to stop, we dont need tyran of the morality of some group, there.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on July 13, 2015, 08:14:31 AM
You say "i don't try to put a flame war or something" but it seems that you're gonna do that eventually if you keep just bringing names out of nowhere like that.

You keep talking about trying to be better with people that did bad things in the past or that one doesn't like, but you don't seem to be able to move on from the past either.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 13, 2015, 08:19:38 AM
I just said an exemple, but in fact, i dont care. x)
Like i said, im not emotional for it....
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on July 13, 2015, 04:21:08 PM
Quote from: "Orange juice :l"
As he said and has been implied, these people tend to make personal issues an issue with the entire community which just tends to escalate conflicts.

As harsh as it may seem, he's right on this. I won't list any names here, but there are some people (who thankfully at the time are banned), who cannot function in a community setting because of their inability to adjust their behavior despite due criticism. A certain someone especially violates this rule, as he has tried to justify his actions through further misbehavior over time, all out of spite for a certain someone and their small group of friends who really didn't do much other than call him out on it.

Also, stonefunk, you can do the whole "I don't care x)" routine all you want, but it's obvious that you really do care since you're the one who always brings up these issues in the first place. This has been getting very irritating lately due to how passive aggressive it is. You can't just say something subject to controversy and pull out with a "lol jk". You have to stick to your points and be ready to explain your reasoning for them.

*EDIT*
While I'm at it, I want to give you a small lesson in rhetoric. Using names and being overly personal in your arguments does not appeal to logic or give credibility to your arguments; it only makes you look flustered and out of control.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 14, 2015, 06:37:42 AM
Actually i "dont care" because each time I try to explain a problem, you do a off topic to say "aaah you are so mean" or other things.
So yeah, must i care? lolz, no.
It's always the same thing, try to kill a debate with making some "no-sens" or emotional stuff', it's not fun.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on July 14, 2015, 07:11:20 AM
I have no idea what you mean with "no-sens" or "emotional stuff".
I didn't try to "do a off topic to say "aaah you are so mean" " or anything, I just said that your post mainly seemed like a personal issue you had with them because of a specific situation that you even mentioned, I didn't want to kill your "debate", in fact, I kind of like arguing and debating, but to do so, you need an argumentative (And I hope "argumentative" is a word) base instead of just passive aggresiveness.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 14, 2015, 08:18:31 AM
Well anyways, i suppose i take this kind of problem, too seriously.....let's move away.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Watzup7856 on July 14, 2015, 03:44:02 PM
Wasn't it already proven that it wasn't Tengu?

Jesus fuck get over yourself
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on July 14, 2015, 03:45:00 PM
Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
I could say the same. Remember MM8AQU in the duel server ? I could talk but yeah, better to keep the topic for something more fun.  :ugeek:

Let's move away, again.

The point keeps flying over your head like a home run.

You're stirring up the pot with all these incredibly petty and low brow dramas you have with other people here, and as soon as people tell you to cut it out, you keep crying victim over spilled milk while trying to get the last word in, expecting people not to say anything back.

Knock it off.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 14, 2015, 03:47:31 PM
Quote from: "Watzup7856"
Wasn't it already proven that it wasn't Tengu?

Jesus fuck get over yourself

I dont talk about Kyo on mmbast.

I talk about the old team tourney where there was Kapus/Awb, and then, Tengu was come to troll me.... x)

See.

I can stop it yeah, depend of your next posts guys, if you want continue on it, i have skype or cutstuff pm.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: King Dumb on July 14, 2015, 07:13:29 PM
Okay yeah if I see any more posts about this subject, the poster(s) will be punished. Keep it to PM or Skype if you must continue it at all.

First of all, this thread is meant to be a safe place for people to post, and despite whether you think that's a good idea or not, this purpose is being violated.
Second of all, Stonefunk, I can confirm for you that Tengu is not Kyo. Regarding that, I will take action there (ie, the server) separately if things get out of hand again.
Third of all... uh yeah, knock it off everyone.

Let's let this thread be peaceful again.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Arcterra on July 18, 2015, 05:54:32 AM
Quote from: "Nostalgia"
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Nah I think you're a rad dude & I'd more than put up with you
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: MusashiAA on July 18, 2015, 07:26:44 AM
Quote from: "Nostalgia"
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 21, 2015, 06:51:30 AM
If someone see Tengu, i still would want an answer about it, so easy to say bad things and dont explain why you do it, just keep hide behind a group'

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it's weird because i was never bad with him....
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on July 21, 2015, 06:59:48 AM
please don't start again
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 21, 2015, 07:04:20 AM
Quote from: "Red"
please don't start again

I did nothing wrong, i just want some answers and you seem scared for nothing! lol  :lol:
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Red on July 21, 2015, 08:50:11 AM
Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
If someone see Tengu, i still would want an answer about it, so easy to say bad things and dont explain why you do it, just keep hide behind a group'

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it's weird because i was never bad with him....
Quote from: "KD"
Stonefunk, I can confirm for you that Tengu is not Kyo.
Quote from: "KD again"
this thread is meant to be a safe place for people to post, and despite whether you think that's a good idea or not, this purpose is being violated
Quote from: "OP"
Admit it, you have at least some one thing going on which you know has or will leave a huge scar in your life. This new topic is for anyone brave enough to just come out and say it.
You're just coming here to bring names and almost picking up fights, you are doing nothing good, and I'm sure small grudges aren't a big scar in your life nor anything of the sort.

You were told that Tengu isn't Kyo, yet you post a PM (for what purpose) asking Tengu if he was Kyo, and once again, after a moderator CONFIRMED you that it was false.

So, at least in my eyes, you ARE doing something wrong, this is NOT the place for YOU to look for your answers regarding some silly things that happened a while ago already, and I'm not scared, I'm tired of you bringing nothing positive to a thread like this.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on July 21, 2015, 08:51:57 AM
Ok, i stop it there. I will try to contact him in a server anyway'
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Korby on July 21, 2015, 12:16:00 PM
Stonefunk, I warned you for starting up the conversation again as KD said he would do.
Red, you didn't get one because you simply just asked him to stop instead of continuing the witch hunt.

Do not continue this conversation again or I will be horribly upset with everyone involved.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on August 08, 2015, 12:33:44 AM
I don't really have a problem right now but I do have something I'd like to express and mention, I guess.

I noticed lately that I've been unusually..moody, I guess you could put it. I've had less patience with other people, I've been a bit more brusque and possibly rude to others and as a whole have just been rather touchy. Things that used to bother me a little have instead bothered me a lot, things that I usually give a pass and ignore now frustrate me a great deal, etc. I think this is mostly due to stuff in my outside life giving me a lot of stress and pressure and not having a whole lot of personal time to myself and my thoughts. I had been quite stressed and depressed in the past couple of weeks (and occasionally feeling lonely, odd considering how socially exhausted I had felt) and it just overall played a great deal on my mood and disposition. Even if I did manage to be happy for a bit, it wouldn't last long and the slightest thing would make me huffy and prickly again.

However, recently I was having a conversation with someone, and they told me that I was probably the nicest person they had ever met on cutstuff. That statement made me think about the rather touchy attitude I've had recently and I started to feel really bad right then and there. Being called nice yet not feeling like you've been a nice person in recent times..I felt undeserving. I try to make it a focus to be an amicable and helpful person at all times regardless of what's going on in my personal life, but I've kinda slipped up a lot and let my issues take control of the way I behaved. I want to be nice. I want to make people smile and laugh, not frown. I want to befriend people, not push them away or antagonize. It's just been a bit difficult lately somehow. I'm trying to get out of it.

So in the end I guess I'm just trying to apologize to people I might have hurt or made uncomfortable or just overall irked with my moodiness.


yeah
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on August 18, 2015, 05:12:09 PM
Sometimes we can do some miss, but anyway, Kapus you are a pretty nice person who doesnt have bad intentions. Even you think You missed something, it's not a big deal, dont worry, You are a nice friend, hope i can see you more on skype to talk about your draws XD
You seem anxious but dont worry, you are cool.  :cool:
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on October 05, 2015, 01:42:10 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Orange juice :l on October 05, 2015, 01:45:26 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Mr. Sean Nelson on October 06, 2015, 11:19:05 PM
I earned a Master's in clinical psychology recently, and I still don't know if I even like the work.
It's stressing me out a lot.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 18, 2016, 08:19:58 PM
You know, i was mad with cutstuff because people have made a vendetta against jclass, Fyone have made a little update but he wont continue the mod, because even if we have a few people, the others boycott Jclass mod and worse than that, they want YDclass to be the main robotmaster mod, so a lot of guys like May (pikmin) and some others are come to troll and insult us, some people used some bugs to force crash the server.

How can i like the community ? I can't.
I play some others fps who are played by adult (like zandronum server) and it's really better, people are adult and don't give a fuck to the others, we want juste have fun.
There is a lot of people in mm8bdm who want just terrorize the few people We had in justifiedclass, even with the last version, digusting. Im out.
I think, cutmanmike should do something, like asking to some people to do their job in the servers if you want keep the community fair and nice, actually, it's not.

Each time i go in a server, im trolled by any way, some people try to be smart and joke about some others but the problem, NOBODY try to ban them, there is a problem of climat in mm8bdm, when a guy start to insult some others and nobody vote to ban him, there is a problem, not only bullying or terrorising, but also the fact, the community of custuff/mm8bdm is not A community, it's THE community of some people who want the others to follow the same opinion.

I will be banned but anyway, who care, i wanted the best for this community but people prefer have no solidarity with the others. (anyway, not like if i post a lot).
I should have never played Megaman games...the whole community is a bit the same, like super smash bros and some others from game who have a childish style (not in the bad way).

People should be act like adult and be more nice with new people, new mods and stuff, i have always fun when i play but people ruin it and use some guys (like me) as a scapegoat but SOME admins prefer keep the atmosphere like that, i don't think, I like this way to keep the community so closed (i would want see some tchat in skype just to confirm what i say, is true but im pretty i know really what happen there).

Have fun with the games and mods, not with the community, if you play to enjoy more a community than a game, so you don't have life.
Because some people had personal dispute with some devrooms, they want see the mod itself dead, seriously, if some people like the mod who was made, you should respect the travail who was done, at least (even if you dont like the guys who made it), look, i have still played YDclass even when there was some problems', i don't play anymore because i prefer have some others experiences. Anyway, Bullying a server because you hate the guy who made the mod, when some neutral people have fun with the mod, is very egoist/selfish.

Im sad for JustifiedClass and some others stuff, Bullying Freak who wanted rebecome a friend of you, but you prefered blame him "because it's so fun to bash" instead of trying to fix the problem, tengu tchat people are strong" He did some bad or boring things, but some people did the same, but sure, those people are sometimes, in the devroom or friends of the people of the devroom, so they are always RIGHT.

And you should allow people to debate when there is a ""drama", people are intelligent enough to understand the problem and fix it together.
But instead, people prefer to hide themselves behind their group of friends, not because they are right, but because they are a lot of people Nobody want try contradict.
That's the problem.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on June 18, 2016, 11:22:24 PM
Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
Have fun with the games and mods, not with the community, if you play to enjoy more a community than a game, so you don't have life.
Are you saying we have no life if we enjoy interacting with people more than playing videogames? That's new.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Hunter Frags on June 19, 2016, 08:14:53 PM
Quote from: "Laggy Blazko"
Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
Have fun with the games and mods, not with the community, if you play to enjoy more a community than a game, so you don't have life.
Are you saying we have no life if we enjoy interacting with people more than playing videogames? That's new.
I don't mean to be rude, but I'm paying more attention to the player spitefulness he brought up that no one's doing a thing about.
Title: Don't do what Musashi did: Don't make bad assumptions.
Post by: Mendez on June 19, 2016, 10:21:13 PM
I remember feeling just like Stonefunk. I talked with King Dumb about it, and here's what I took away from my conversation from KD:
Nobody is against you, and if they were, the community is small enough where you can deal with matters DIRECTLY instead of making lame blanket assumptions that will likely have no merit once you're asked for actual evidence. I see Stonefunk's statements about boycotts and bullying and just think that he's either living in the past or incredibly paranoid about what's going on around him. From my experience, I've actually seen people treating Fr3ak fairly. I've even talked with the guy, he seems less like a kid desperate for attention and more like a person you can have a nice conversation with.
Funny how things change over time, right?
But the fact of the matter is that there will always be conflicts among players over petty things. I was once super rude to a female player, and guess what happened after that? Nothing, because it was petty and I know better now. You take these petty issues seriously and you're going to start losing your mind sooner or later, Stonefunk. All these "bad people", this "tengu chat", you can't treat them like big faceless entities that you can't touch and feel obligated to call out. You're a grown man now, you know what you can do? Talk to them. This isn't 6 years ago, where most of us were in high school. We're growing up now, just like you, and we now have the intellect required to express our emotions and thoroughly explain what makes us unhappy.
As an aside, that's the reason I have more respect for Lego and King Dumb than I will ever have for the rest of this community. They're some of the only people I can actually talk to about issues without being ignored.
Stop being so scared to cover your accusations with "some people" and "some Admins". That just makes your complaints look petty. And throw whatever assumptions you had about Skype chats out the window. I'm part of Freeman's chat and it's not like we're constantly conspiring to take down whoever we don't like. Keep filling in the blanks with your own lame assumptions, but it doesn't resolve anything. Try talking to at least one person that you've accused of abusing the community. You'll be better off seeking the truth than poorly attempting to believe you know the truth.
Title: This shouldn't even be in this topic gdi
Post by: Gumballtoid on June 20, 2016, 11:45:00 AM
Quote from: "Mendez"
I remember feeling just like Stonefunk. I talked with King Dumb about it, and here's what I took away from my conversation from KD:
And throw whatever assumptions you had about Skype chats out the window. I'm part of Freeman's chat and it's not like we're constantly conspiring to take down whoever we don't like. Keep filling in the blanks with your own lame assumptions, but it doesn't resolve anything.
This right here.

I'm part of Tengu's chat and, as far as I know, we haven't wronged anyone. We have better things to do than plot some grand scheme to stage a coup or whatever the hell is being suggested here. Quit displacing your frustration on us, damn it.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 20, 2016, 03:39:14 PM
I havent posted it for the fun and because i'm frustrated, just bored about being patient with some people since 2010.
With some others communities, it's weird but i have no problem, maybe because adults are less agressive, usually.

I'm maybe negative but i try to be not blind, anyway, not like if it's a deal, right ? Not like if i could come back even in the servers because i'm scared when i come.
Some people say I can't handle jokes, but when i see stuff like "Packmap : Stonefuck" or when people like quote me when i fail a bit with my english or others, its really boring, im pretty sure, i will never have this problem in doom servers (where people, at the worst, just insult and leave, because, it's a community where people dont give a f*ck to the others, and thats the best.
I don't care about people but the way some people act, especially in group, is really awful.

Admins (especially in the servers), should do their work, EVEN when a guy troll an other because they think they will be see as smart people, it's still bad and not fun, just very childish.
Like a certain guy who said to the BE admins Im abusing ban on him, you know what? If those people trolled in DOOM servers like they do in MM8BDM, they could be mass permabanned and good thing, the DOOM community is more serious than that.

I suppose, there is nothing to change, since the community of MM8BDM is like that, anyway'
I would want see "some" people trolling some people who are popular or skilled, just to see if they could be able do the same thing, or not.... :/
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Laggy Blazko on June 20, 2016, 05:03:22 PM
What are you talking about? I'm in the Doom community too, and:
1.- There are groups of people who care about each other.
2.- There are people who sometimes join servers to votekick people.
3.- Now Best-Ever gave server owners freedom/responsability to ban and allow whoever they want, I'm sure this is going to be abused in both MM8BDM and Doom. There were already people abusing stuff before and now there will be more.

This community is not better or worse than the Doom community. It's just smaller and people know each other more.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 20, 2016, 06:12:26 PM
At least, JustifiedClass fans will be allowed to play the mod with fun without to be trolled or listen some "boycott stuff.
Have fun with your mods guys.

If people can't handle a community, better to separated, i think. (:
Title: I'm gonna get ad-hominem'd so hard
Post by: Jman on June 20, 2016, 11:56:28 PM
I'll be pretty direct about this, Stonefunk. Long anecdote incoming, so it'll be spoilered for your convenience.
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Gumballtoid on June 21, 2016, 02:14:44 AM
Those are points I hadn't considered. Using Fr3akGamer as an example, as Stonefunk so insisted, let me help put it into perspective. He's extremely clingy to those he wants to get in good with (read: literally anyone on the DOS Reborn team), juvenile and petty in regards to those he dislikes (read: literally anyone in Tengu's chat), and on the whole, generally unsavory and toxic (largely in regards to his crude, tactless sense of humor). These traits are all pretty off-putting on their own, but collectively they're a complete dumpster fire. Why would anyone in their right mind make an active effort to "fix the problem" with someone like this when it's far less psychologically taxing to simply tune them out altogether? It just doesn't work that way.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 21, 2016, 02:22:46 AM
I feel like even if i try to be nice, people will continue to misthreat me here.
I tried to talk with some people but they didnt want, so,  i prefered to do the same thing if it's the deal, especially if some people want keep the stuff like that.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Bikdark on June 21, 2016, 02:49:44 AM
you have a tendency to be condescending, maybe turn that down a little and people will be more receptive.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 21, 2016, 04:17:10 AM
Dat joke...
I tried to talk with some people nicely and understand why they acted like "that", if they were scared by the way i act, it's ridiculous.
People can act angry or nicely,all depend if they are receptive and smart, they can understand the problem.
I feel it's more because a lot of people are indifferent and don't care about the consequences of how they act, just sayin

But anyway, im not in the megaman servers anymore. I need to play some others stuff, it's great.  :cool:
Title: Whoops
Post by: Galactan on June 21, 2016, 05:41:53 AM
Just "being nice" isn't going to fix it. Most of the stuff you've been trying to say is spiteful or downright hateful. Saying it in a nice way isn't going to improve people's reception of your point.

Something that would go a long way towards improving your standing with people is if you stopped acting so aloof and nonchalant about everything. Tacking an "I don't actually care" message to the end of every last one of your posts doesn't free you from the guilt associated with taking an asshole's standpoint, it just makes you look like more of an asshole.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on June 21, 2016, 06:04:29 AM
Quote from: "Bikdark"
you have a tendency to be condescending, maybe turn that down a little and people will be more receptive.

Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
Dat joke...

Case in point. He wasn't joking, that was genuine advice.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Bikdark on June 21, 2016, 07:00:03 AM
well no stonefunk im being serious. being more openminded/accepting of others is a good way to start being seen differently.

also guys this thread isnt necessarily for roasting, dont be too hard on people here pls
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Shina-K on June 21, 2016, 07:33:43 AM
since this thread looks like its for confessions
Hi, my name is shina
and im rarely online

Sometimes I open up google chrome and i think of cutstuff
but then I don't
and i forget

And thats why im never online

(thats my confession)
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 21, 2016, 10:08:00 AM
I should accept people yes, but not the ones who insult me (like the one who used "assholes"), im still polite, but well, seem easy to insult when we are from a certain group (:

Well, bikdark, i suppose, i can be extremist sometimes but it can be hard to trust people... I will try it.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jakeinator on June 21, 2016, 02:19:25 PM
Quote from: "Emmanuelf06"
im still polite, but well, seem easy to insult when we are from a certain group (:

Okay, I shouldn't be dragging myself into this but I need to get something off my chest regarding this. I seriously believe you're doing this on purpose at this point. How many times have the people in this thread said to stop doing that kind of stuff and then they'll actually respect you. I am not even in the BIG BAD EVIL TENGU CHAT, but you make them out to be the boogiemen of the community. Seriously dude, get over yourself, no need to proclaim you don't play 8BDM with a smiley after it ESPECIALLY since you keep coming back to the thread to be condescending again. This leads back to the whole entire I think you're doing this on purpose thing.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 21, 2016, 03:58:55 PM
I can accept the fact I can be a bit rude, but i still think, this community, like a lot of communities on internet, act with communitarianism type, who is not surprising, and my thought won't change (internet is often like that with the forums or tchat).
But i can try to be not agressive anymore, there is not purpose actually so stop it, i'm not forced to believe people are nice especially with what i have taken in my face all this time.
You seem to want talk again? I don't want.
I have just said I didnt like the insult used by galactan.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Watzup7856 on June 21, 2016, 07:56:07 PM
Nobody in the Tengu chat wants to attack other people. We're just a bunch of peeps wanting to play games together or talk about stuff. What could be taken as an attack is probably just us joking around. We do that to each other too, so it's not like it's just outside of our chat.

As I always say, don't sweat the petty things, but also don't pet the sweaty things.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 21, 2016, 08:05:00 PM
Ah ok, i see.
Well, im very sensible and susceptible, it's why im very reactive too.
Title: Same posts, same answers.
Post by: Red on June 21, 2016, 08:18:56 PM
I always try imitating your broken english with my buds and im just letting you know that there's no hate at all.

We're just paying tribute to you.
Title: Sad thing is, I only lasted a few months in that chat.
Post by: BiscuitSlash on June 21, 2016, 09:05:21 PM
Quote from: "Watzup7856"
Nobody in the Tengu chat wants to attack other people.
Almost nobody.

I often feel insecure around Cutstuff, but I also often realize that majority of people don't actually hate me or want to cause any harm. Stonefunk, most people here would rather we'd all get along, including you!
Title: Re: Same posts, same answers.
Post by: Emmanuelf06 on June 22, 2016, 06:58:34 AM
Quote from: "Red"
I always try imitating your broken english with my buds and im just letting you know that there's no hate at all.

We're just paying tribute to you.

Personally, i don't agree.
That's really arrogant and pretentious, especially when it's from a girl who is not from USA basically, right ? (at least for Red).
Anyway, not like if i talk with you or play with you on the servers...do you talk about "omelette du fromage" with your friends too ?
But yes, it's me who is arrogant and antisocial.  :cool:

It reminds me people in school "oooh, we joked about you but it's to be funnyyyyyy, loooool"


BiscuitSlash => Yeah i know, some people are still cool and neutral, i don't blame all the community, anyway, but there is still people who need always to talk to feel they are important and superior too. It's not my deal and i don't have ego, i don't care about myself at all, im just very bored to see how, in a megaman community, people can be so mean.
Title: Chris Benoit
Post by: Mendez on June 22, 2016, 07:54:06 AM
Yeah, I'd agree that imitating broken English is almost never out of tribute, especially if the person writing broken English finds it to be a flaw. There really wasn't any good reason to post that, but I assume Red has just presented himself as one of the people you can directly talk to about an issue you might have with people mocking you for broken English.
I still feel like there are a couple of people on the forum who like to take potshots at me whenever they can, but since I'm never very involved in the forum, I just avoid making a big deal about it. Conflict is inevitable, and so far this generation is struggling to confront it in a productive and honest manner. I get a feeling Shina's post was an attempt to undermine the issue being discussed, but that's never helpful for resolving any issues. Trying to sweep things under the rug only helps in the short-term, but leads to strained relations in the long-term. Good to see Stonefunk and others at least airing out their grievances.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ceridran on June 22, 2016, 02:49:47 PM
Quote
"oooh, we joked about you but it's to be funnyyyyyy, loooool"

things like this and "but it's out of love" drive me crazy 'cuz it's always a shoddy coverup they just made up-- the same kind of people look at you like you've got three heads if you try to speak and think your existence is a funny joke
Title: I'm 10% sober.
Post by: Red on June 22, 2016, 06:08:46 PM
Sorry for not quoting but I'm hoping the point gets across anyways

I only really wanted to tell you stonefunk that there was no ill intent there. Even if you feel like you are being mocked or being made out as a fool, that's not always the case, isn't it? Not everything is an attack, dude. Sorry if I sent you negative vibes or some shit.

edit because I just saw ceridran s post
I can assure you it's not a shitty cover up nor anything because if I just wanted to make fun of you and shit over you, I'd just do it and not really tell you in a forum nor anything. And that's clearly not my intention.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Jman on August 08, 2016, 05:02:10 AM
It's that time of the year again where my stress levels shoot through the roof. I really need some input on this. This might turn into a bit of a sob story, but I'll do what I can to keep the QQ to a minimum.

I've been feeling down lately. Not mildly depressed or anxious, but down in the dumps. Damn near rock bottom. I entered college three years ago feeling determined, optimistic, full of drive, and did pretty alright my first semester. Then I started failing classes - and it just got worse and worse from there. My gpa took a sharp curve downward halfway through my sophomore year. It got to the point where I lost major scholarships, nearly had my loans and grants cut, and had to change my major from CS to IT. This coming semester is pretty much my last chance. The reason I took a "break" earlier this year was to go cold turkey on games so I could focus on school. Games weren't the problem, though, as I found out. The real problem is that I'm just a terrible college student.

Those of you who have struggled with this before and won this battle, or never had trouble with it at all: please, what do I do? How do I get over this slump of thinking that I've worked hard only to find out that I've not even scratched the surface of what's called effort? How do I go from failing nearly all of my classes to making straight A's? Why am I asking YOU all of these questions?
Mermaid Man, where are you?!?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: *Alice on August 08, 2016, 05:25:12 AM
Those of you who have struggled with this before and won this battle, or never had trouble with it at all: please, what do I do? How do I get over this slump of thinking that I've worked hard only to find out that I've not even scratched the surface of what's called effort? How do I go from failing nearly all of my classes to making straight A's? Why am I asking YOU all of these questions?
Mermaid Man, where are you?!?

No freaking clue. I started studying for a B.Sc. in CS and just dropped out after 2-3 semesters, because of things similar to what you described.

So I did something like (I live in Germany, things are kind of different here) an https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apprenticeship as a programmer instead (which I recently finished, yay!).

I already had a diploma that was roughly associate's degree level, though.

EDIT: I guess not having any loans and such helped. A semester cost like, what, $200 where I studied?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Russel on August 08, 2016, 05:28:46 AM
While I may not have any real solution to these concerns, I recommend turning to people at your college. Ask an advisor what you should do, find counseling.

I'm sorry if that seems really basic and straight, and may even be something you've already tried. I'm just not sure how else I can help you in this state.
My only remaining recommendation is to just quit school or finish what you can, take the winnings, and leave. Find work and build a life. Try again when you find yourself able to.

Life sucks sometimes and the best I can tell you is to bear with it and go with the grain.
I wish you the best of luck.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Tengu on August 08, 2016, 07:59:26 AM
While more difficult, it is possible to get a well-paying job and stuff without schooling. With how far you've come though, I recommend not taking that route. I think the worst time of my life was right after I made the decision to not continue college because the idea of crippling debt scared the living shit out of me. I felt terrible for the next year and I was full of regret. It took a lot of willpower to get myself back on my feet.

The fact of the matter is though unless you're happy, nothing is going to feel like it's worth it. Focus on yourself before anything else. Get help, talk to someone like a therapist. I've been through multiple. It may not feel like it helps the first few times but it's something you have to force yourself to get into the habit of doing, much like joining a gym and working out. If you ever need some heavy venting shoot me a message, I've got a lot of time to listen.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Xhatahx on September 26, 2016, 10:31:21 PM
I have flashbacks. But they aren't flashbacks of horrible, cruel events. They're flashbacks of embarrassing events. Even though they had no lasting effect, my subconcious treats them like they were the death of a family member.

And yet, when my grandfather died 8 years ago, I didn't mourn. At his funeral, I was just bored. I still don't feel any sadness. I was sadder when (spoiler) died in Star Wars Episode 7.

Something's really wrong with me.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on September 27, 2016, 04:24:06 AM
Did you have any real connection or closeness to your grandfather?
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: bass44 on September 27, 2016, 04:34:05 AM
I have flashbacks. But they aren't flashbacks of horrible, cruel events. They're flashbacks of embarrassing events. Even though they had no lasting effect, my subconcious treats them like they were the death of a family member.

And yet, when my grandfather died 8 years ago, I didn't mourn. At his funeral, I was just bored. I still don't feel any sadness. I was sadder when (spoiler) died in Star Wars Episode 7.

Something's really wrong with me.

I lost my grandfather 9 years ago, I too did not feel any sort of sadness. I didn't realize how much it would've become important to me later in life when I felt left out during "bring your grandparents to school" days when I was in elementary school 7-8 years ago.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Xhatahx on September 27, 2016, 07:56:35 AM
Did you have any real connection or closeness to your grandfather?
Yes. I often visited him when I was young. One thing I vividly remember about him was that his last name* was the same as Spongebob's in Iceland(Svampur Sveinson) as weird as it sounds.

*Icelanders don't have last names
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: BlastDaSky on October 01, 2016, 02:07:30 PM
I never met my grandfather
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Myroc on October 26, 2016, 01:05:08 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on October 26, 2016, 04:19:20 AM
@ Myroc (don't read if you don't like existential crisis/fears)

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my writing skills have really gone down the drain, huh.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rozark on October 27, 2016, 09:54:54 AM
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Mendez on October 27, 2016, 07:05:25 PM
@Rozark
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As for me
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: ambrose on October 27, 2016, 08:24:22 PM
I haven't really been a part of this community in a long time, but I don't really know where else to really go with this.
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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: bass44 on November 22, 2019, 07:56:25 AM
Seems like this place has long since been abandoned, I might as well say something...

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Ever since my dad passed away in October, I've been wondering if this is what I deserve for all the bad things I've done to everyone here long ago.

Like this is my punishment for hurting those over silly things, like "not putting my shitty sprites in a huge sheet of MegaMan weapons" or the one that most people seem to associate me with
'the medals'. Every time I see that MM9 contributor medal, I'll always remember that I'll never be able to obtain it because I acted entitled for it. I wanted to become a member of the main development team because I felt like I was not getting the same level of respect and praise as the people who were on there were. When I did not receive that medal for not doing anything for that expansion that was truly worthy, I refused to play that version because I acted selfish.

My sprites (and me in general) were ignored by the community, and sometimes downright shat on by the "good" spriters who had the skills for the dev-team. That's what made me act aggressive and selfish, and now there are some people who still look at me as that person.

The main thing that I have trouble with is understanding what people are saying when they're giving me criticism. I can understand basic instructions like "move their arm down by 2 pixels" or "made their head wider". When people say things like "just imagine what it would look like", that's not helping. Even if you don't mean to sound like a smart mouth, it's not helpful at all. If I don't know exactly what to do, I have to just take guesses on how something should be drawn.
Sometimes I lose my temper over not being able to draw/understand the instructions, that makes people not want to help me with my projects when I eventually figure out what they meant and do it properly. This is how my autism disorder affects me, and some of those people blame that for why I'm a bad artist.

I've always tried to be a good person, or at least a decent one at best. Whenever I ended up hurting someone over something innocent like "being better than me at art" or "having more Cutstuff awards in their profile than me", I always try to make up for it 90% of the time. Some people who've been hurt by me don't see me trying to ask for forgiveness as sincere or apologetic. They see it as persistence or in some rare cases "stalking". I've always gone by the moral of "If you want something, keep doing whatever it takes to get it, and don't let anyone stop you".

In one case, it was me trying to get someone to be my friend again after a major confrontation happened.
It did not work, it only made them resent me even more. After months and months of trying to convince them that I changed, they just blocked me on every website.
I thought I could get some people to help, but all they did was just tell me to "leave them alone", that's what I did. To this very day, I'm still blocked by them on nearly everything.
And, from what I can tell, they're never going to "be my friend" ever again.

It is really, really heart wrenching to have someone who was once your friend develop a grudge against you because you hurt them over something, and then they don't believe you when you truly have remorse for your sins.

When I was 8 years old, or rather even to this day, there is a book that is scarier than any horror movie or anything that's ever been conceived. There was this one kid who found out I was afraid of it, and decided to pull a little prank on me with it that involved manipulating one of my friends. It was probably one of the most traumatic things I've ever experienced. I was pissed off at my friend, ready to never talk to them again, that was until they told me about "that kid".

Ever since that day, I had a never ending grudge with that kid. About 6 years after that, I saw their name pop up on my Facebook feed and I thought "oh yeah, I wonder if they remember that little incident that happened in 2nd grade". I went onto their Facebook account to see if they were online, I saw a bunch of messages written on their timeline.
It turned out they died suddenly.

I was never able to apologize for holding a grudge over something so damn silly like scaring me with a book that would keep H.P. Lovecraft awake at night. Nothing is more devastating than not being able to make up and apologize to someone you've hurt when you're genuinely sorry for it.

Some people can be or say things that are very insensitive to someone like me. The "R" word, or jokes about short people for example are what really infuriate me to no end. Those people don't know what it's like to be what I am, they've never experienced the consequences for being something or having a condition that is completely out of your control. Another issue I keep facing is when I dislike something or have a different opinion of something for a reason that most people find ridiculous, they try to "correct me" and even after they've made their point, they still continue to put me down on it.

Whenever I face an injustice being directed at me or something that goes against my morals, I've always been one to call them out or fight until they get what they deserve. Perhaps this is being hypocritical to the whole "never hold a grudge" thing, but there's always a difference between people who don't want to change, and the people who do. Like I've stated before, I almost always remorse over a bad thing I do. 

Everything here is the reason why I have a hard time sleeping. It's insomnia but not the traditional way. It's like I can't fall asleep as soon as I get into bed so I just lay there for sometimes hours. When I'm not at the computer, the "bad thoughts" and memories flood back into my mind and there's no way to think about something else.

That's what karma is, you get hit with bad moments in your life when you cause bad moments in other people's lives, even if you regret/apologize for them.

Ever since 2016, things have just been getting worse and worse...
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: TheDoc on November 22, 2019, 09:39:52 PM
I've been lurking on Cutstuff for about a year before I actually made an account, barely ever associating with the people on the forum because I found enough of them to be dismissive, rude, and overall arrogant when interacting with people they aren't particularly chummy with. At first, I thought that perhaps it was my fault, but after being on here long enough and seeing the loads of drama on this forum over time, I've definitely changed my mind since then.

That being said, even with the zero interaction I've personally had with the community, I've seen people change over time to people that I believe I could have a normal conversation with, and even a couple that were publicly remorseful for how they've behaved in the past, and even though it by no means motivates me to dive into this community headfirst, I could at least recognize that people on this forum (and honestly, the internet in general), no matter how we interact with each other, were still people, and people have the capacity to change and be better, or at least different than how they were before.

So I say this, bass44, because you are one of those people that I've seen change. Even though I barely know you at all, I've seen enough to say that you have changed. Of course I'm sure there's plenty I don't know about in the background, what you've said or what you've done, but in my mind, those who are remorseful of their actions have more hope of changing for the better than those who cannot see their own shortcomings; the first (and sometimes hardest) step to conquering our faults is to recognize the faults are there. And you have. So lift your head up.

Also, without getting in to your religion or what you believe, doing good and being good solely in response to the gripping fear of karmic punishment is no different that being worked to the bone at a concentration camp. You just can't live in that kind of constant fear and despair and call it living; it's incredibly unhealthy for your psyche and it won't land you in a place of content. The world is unfair; bad things happen to good people all the time and vice versa. I think we should strive to do good because it can better the lives of others and draw in those who recognize that same goodness. It obviously doesn't always work that way, though, and sometimes "doing good" causes more pain than doing nothing. In these times, if you continue to believe that bad things happen because you weren't "good" enough, you'll drive yourself into the ground with nothing to show for it because bad things will always happen.

As important as becoming a better person is, it's also important to recognize who you are and own it. You are who you are today BECAUSE of your past choices. Stop thinking about what you could've done because you would have done the exact same thing, because that's who you were, and that can help shape who you are now if you choose to accept the past for what it is and believe that it will help you make a better future. Wish you the best.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Ruzma on November 23, 2019, 08:48:08 AM
I wish I knew what to say.

I've always been the worst at this...kind of thing.
It's followed me every step of my life, never being able to talk to people, make them feel good...or something...
I wish...I really wish I knew what the right thing to say in these types of situations was. Surely everything would have been better if I was able to, right?
However.
There is one thing that remains sure. One thing.

You cannot fathom how much I relate to you.

I legitimately do not have my way with words enough to tell it properly. Being able to know what people think and having them know exactly how I feel have been a lifelong dream for me ever since...well, ever, really.

I've had this emotional sensitivity issue from birth. The time where it put in t he most uncomfortable situation of all, was when my grand-father died.
To give a little context, everyone loved him. But I...I never found myself feeling the same. According to what everyone has said to me, he was supposed to have been this super quirky guy, full of charm and whatever...
But you see: I never got the chance to know him as much. During all the years of my life, all he had been to me was this strange man who had lost the ability to talk and think straight. When he grew older, he had had this mouth and brain problem which rendered him utterly incomprehensible. Because of this, I never had any moment when I actively wished to spend time with him, because I had no idea what he was saying, what he wanted, and even then, most of the time, his mental condition made it any attempts at conversing completely nonsensical.

And then everyone started grieving and crying around me, my grandma especially (she still does to this day) and I just stood there, feeling both confused and like an asshole. I think it was real hard on my dad, who ended up really admiring his own dad and couldn't comprehend why I was feeling...so hollow to it all. I had a talk with my mother after having been told the news. It'll probably stay in her mind and..."help(?)" her in defining me forever. IT was helpful, because I tried to explain how I simply never had been given a chance to relate, having never known him as this charmer everyone was telling me he was. I dodged a mountain sized bullet on the day my grandmother cried on me and started accusing me of not caring. It took the act of crying myself and telling her why I simply hadn't been able and wouldn't have been able o share her grief in any capacity to calm her down.

As I am telling you this, this problem of not being able to explicitly or outwardly care has landed me in pretty bad spots with the people around me. I have little to no relatable friends. I don't enjoy time spent with family members as much as other people do, I'm sure. I feel like an ungrateful brat.

I feel lonely. So very, very lonely. It's probably at the core of who I am at this point, this solitude.

In response to your own troubles, just know that I cannot stop myself from admiring you, my friend. I actively envy your skills and wish I could be as proactive, I really, really do.
There are loads of new people out there now, that most likely look up to yourself as much as I do...This is a chance to make some new friends, that are interested in you, really.

I'll always, ALWAYS support you in what you do, read that? Always.
If there's one thing that has paid off, that does pay off, that always will and always should, it's powering through things and through life itself. Just do like those kitty poster, and hang on.
Others are going through it just as you are. It took me time to realize this for myself, so here I am, telling you.

I...hope...that I was able to give a good idea of how I feel, and that I did a right thing. I'll be seeing you, on whatever other endeavor you are on. Don't ever believe that what you do has no point. Just as trying to put more into crying is pointless, sulking on one's life regrets has never lead anyone towards the right place.

All my encouragements and have a good day, friend!
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: bass44 on November 23, 2020, 12:38:11 AM
1 year later huh? Seems like just a few days ago.

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I never thought it would have happened, but it did. The person who I never thought would forgive me ended up doing so, completely out of the blue. Do you think dreams come true? Because
this is now bridging the gap between dreams and reality. I was amazed that not only that, but I was sworn into moderation on the unofficial 8BDM discord server. The one that I was banned from because I was shrouded in a cloud of hatred and pride. The cloud had cleared long enough for me to be able to keep my cool in bad situations. More or less, I've cleaned up a few bad messes in the chatrooms, and really helped make it more welcoming to people than what it was when I first joined. My dream was to be respected among the community, and what I thought I had to do was be a part of the main game's development team. In reality, all I had to do was be a good person. And at the end of day, it doesn't matter how good your art is, or how many medals you have.

Ever hear the term "if you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it's yours."?
That doesn't mean you should throw a 100 dollar bill in a paper shredder because it'll magically reappear. But I mean like, if someone doesn't want to talk to you because you hurt them, you should leave them alone. If they decide they'll be your friend again, that means they've given you another chance, another opportunity to change. The difference between me and other people who were banned from the server (or cutstuff in general) is that I learned from my deeds. I made sure not to do them again, and learned why it's wrong to do those things.

It's been a whole year since my father (stepfather turned out) had passed away. Things have not been going better or worse since then. I guarantee you he would have been much worse off if he had been alive to see this pandemic. Either he would have been too paranoid to go outside, or he would have not worn a mask because it bothered his face (which is somewhat understandable). I just know that he would have come home with the virus and proceeded to spread it to my mother and I. I honestly don't think I would have survived a case of it, my body is extremely weak as is (haven't visited a doctor in a year). I never learned how to drive, and my mom has a lot of phobias surrounding being able to do things. I can't blame her for it, because it's a real serious thing. I'd be able to tell if she was faking it, because my dad was like that a lot. My sister came over just today and asked to move in, this is a huge benefit to both of us because we have an escort to places like the big grocery store or a doctor's office, or anywhere really. They weren't nice to me when I was a kid, but that was just their teenage attitude shining. I can trust them as much as a best friend now, even if sometimes they ramble on about themselves too much. Believe me, what they did was not unforgivable.

I shouldn't feel uncomfortable for being openly bisexual, everyone I know is ok with it. I even told my mom and she was apathetic about it (better than nothing right?). You see the problem is that there are in fact people on this planet who think that my orientation is "more privileged" because I'm attracted to both men and women (and NB people of course). If I were to be with a woman out on a pride parade, there would be someone saying "what's a straight couple doing here?" if I was not wearing any flags (I would anyway tho). I thought LGBT was supposed to be accepting of each other? Instead, you have these TERF lesbians who run around saying that killing all men will solve the world's problems, and they blame abused women on their attraction to men (this includes bi women). I'd hate to hear what they'd say about bisexual men. Oh wait that's right, they're misogynist because they're attracted to women. I don't need to say "not all men", however, these "misandrists" think they can run around saying shit like "all men are pedophiles" like they're self riotous and anyone who calls them out on it is "part of the problem". Like I don't care if someone dislikes men because of their history with them, but them going around making it their entire fucking personality and unironically identifying themselves as a hateful person, then that makes them no better than those Reddit "nice guys".

The lesson here? Don't shroud yourself with hatred. When I was younger, I was bullied by tall people because I'm short. Does that mean I can go around saying "all tall people should be executed because they hurt me in the past"? No, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't call out bullying when you see it happening in front of you.

Oh and ACAB is different because people aren't born police officers, they become them. They choose to become oppressors by their own will. The concept of police are not to inherently solve problems, but to enforce laws that the area they live in. Do you think if facial hair was illegal, they'd be handcuffing people who have mustaches and beards because they couldn't afford to shave? I guarantee that's what would happen.

One more thing, please wear your masks. That's all I'm asking for.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: *Alice on February 06, 2021, 07:24:45 PM
I am really not good with words and don't know if I will even submit this post.

So yesterday when using my browser, the URL bar suggestions showed me this website and I thought I might as well check it out again. I read the last page or two of the Anything Goes thread and stumbled over Turbodude's post about this forum being kind of an archive of past selves

Looking at my past posts I have to say that reading my old posts was a terrible experience. I wonder if they represent how I was like properly or if it's more of a matter of me just having been plain terrible at conversing in text. It's a miracle that I ended up having people actually like and appreciate me in this community - although a lot of my interactions were also off-forum and maybe I was different on skype? I honestly didn't notice myself changing between, say, 2016 and now (2021) but I definitely must have, to a big degree.

I guess one of the main things about me that did happen over the last few years is that I ended up being very scared of conflict and ended up being a lot more reluctant to even say anything in messages or posts - especially in terms of voicing disagreement. I guess that's a good thing and a sign of personal growth? But at times it feels almost unhealthy.

Other things that come to mind: It seems like in the end, I now still have regular-ish contact to three of my friends from here, and even them I struggle to confidently call friends. I've never been good at keeping friends close so that's nothing unexpected but it's still kind of sad - but there's of course also always external factors that influence things like that. I still think they're still overall friends though.

But I am thankful for everyone here who was ever friends with me or even just talked to me occasionally - this community was the first community online I was ever part of and where I learnt and grew a lot. If you read this, and remember be (or maybe not), and wanna talk to me about the good old days or whatever, my discord user name is in the website link on my profile / the globe icon below my avatar. I'm honestly kind of paranoid about it getting indexed in Google or whatever since I'm *that* embarrassed of what 18-21 year old me posted so I'm not posting it in the open.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Gumballtoid on February 06, 2021, 10:55:47 PM
I think I speak for many of us in saying that you're hardly the only person who has regrets over the things they've said and done in past years. I can't help but cringe when I think back on the way I used to carry myself around here: I was hypersensitive, petty, and had little to no grasp of online etiquette, which led to a lot of senseless bickering and unnecessary grief for myself and others.

Still, I've always been of the mind that identifying and acknowledging past mistakes is a definite sign of personal growth. I think that's something to be proud of, especially if you take the steps to avoid making those very mistakes again. This goes for everyone: be confident and don't sell yourself short, but always have a willingness to learn and grow.

All that besides, those tumultuous years helped me get to know a lot of great people--some of whom I've had the privilege of meeting in-person, and those relationships have helped me build a sort of backbone when it comes to the way I carry myself nowadays. I'm very grateful to those that accepted or even tolerated me, even when I was at my worst.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rozark on February 06, 2021, 11:32:20 PM
I legit used standalone lowercase i's in sentences about a decade ago and that bothers me.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Turbodude on April 13, 2021, 07:55:32 PM
I know this forum is dead as a doornail, but there's been somethings that have crept in the back of my head over the last few years, may it be from my inability to let go of my past transgressions or a need of closure.

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Dogcheese on February 20, 2022, 09:13:21 AM
I got banned for trolling about 10 years ago on this forum, I did alot of stupid shit but the most egregious offense I can see is that I never put spaces after my punctuation. What the fuck was wrong with me Jesus Christ I know I was 10 years old but fuck me that shits inexcusable.

Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Bikdark on March 01, 2022, 11:59:48 PM
are u guys okay jesus christ did this game damage us THAT much
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: HeelNavi on August 14, 2022, 07:59:19 PM
are u guys okay jesus christ did this game damage us THAT much
he's got a point
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: CDRom11_2007 on December 14, 2022, 01:27:08 AM
Colour my surprise when going through memory lane, I find an old post I made as the most recent reply for a section on this forum. I doubt many people still check it out, so I think I will actually use this time to air out something that's been on my mind recently.

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That... actually felt way better to put into words than I thought. Huh, thank you past me for making this random post as a stupid teenager, I don't think you ever realised how much it could help you down the line.
Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Rui on January 01, 2024, 04:40:42 AM
This is something I’ve been heavily thinking about a lot now that I’m settled down. I think it’s important I allow myself to be vulnerable one last time, for the sake of closure and healing, now that I’m in a much different place and understand myself better.

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Title: Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
Post by: Kapus on January 27, 2024, 01:34:54 AM
If you're reading this right now then I love you.

Thanks for being a part of the community. This place was my home for 10 years and it makes me happy to see people still playing MM8BDM or posting on the forum. :>