I know this forum is dead as a doornail, but there's been somethings that have crept in the back of my head over the last few years, may it be from my inability to let go of my past transgressions or a need of closure.
I was not a good person many years ago. I know I've made a lot of friends on here, and I'm so thankful that I'm still in touch with on discord and other places, but I was not a good person when most of you knew me. I'm not going to put the blame on me going through a lot of things in my life at the time, I am putting the blame on myself and the stupid kid I was. I was a smart-alec, hormonal, and in some earlier cases, legitimately hurtful person.
I talked this over with ABBB (Action Bastard Bastard Beam/Tomo Takino Go Go Go!/Combotron) as well as Mendez in some servers not too long ago, there was a lot about life that I did not understand and I acted out in a way that my current self would find deplorable. There was a user that used to be on Cutstuff that I remember being in a call with over Skype, back before we had a multitude of Skype groups for Cutstuff/8BDM, and I remember saying to others, and I believe these forums...some very awful and transphobic things. I did not understand what being trans was, especially not to the extent that I do now, where I myself am now trans (nonbinary, they/them). That being said, the memory and thought of me saying these things to a genuinely nice person, or anybody for that matter...it has me wracked with guilt. I will not name this person for the sake of their privacy, but if this person is reading this, please know that I am so...SO sorry for who I was in the past, and I am genuinely happy for the good you have done for others in the past and present.
This goes for all of you, really, for anybody that I may have wronged in the past when I was a stupid teenager. I'm sorry for my rudeness, for thinking I was hot shit, and not being a better person to you all. I hope that this can bring closure on who I was back then, and to offer my genuine apologies now to anybody I may have done wrong to.