I've ignored or refused to help others around here when I'm perfectly capable of doing so, I'm unable to improve my MM8BDM skills against good competition, etc. To be honest I can only think of one thing that I actually finished my entire time I've been here, which was a map for the Finish That Map 2 competition (a map that ended up in the middle of the pack, but that's somewhat ancillary).
I don't think that says anything about you as a person. Even if you were capable of helping others, you probably weren't in the mood to do so or were busy, which is alright. Even though you are under no obligation to help others (
not saying you shouldn't since it is a very nice gesture), you can always redirect them to someone who can help in your place.
Not finishing things doesn't mean you're bad or anything. I'm pretty sure
a lot of us started our own stuff but never finished on them. Starting things and finishing them is something that requires practice. You probably won't finish it the first time, or the second time, or the third time. That doesn't mean that it won't
ever be done, though. There are plenty of chances to continue things, and you learn to manage it better the more you do it.
It's all part of a crippling inferiority complex that I've suffered from ever since those aforementioned junior years, where I believed that wasn't good enough for everyone else. This thinking only makes me angry and depressed to the point where I detest certain members of the community; not because of any action that has come at my expense, but simply because they remind me of something that I believe I will never be able to reach while I'm here. I'm a rather mediocre, middle-of-the-road person, with no real fit inside of this community.
You don't really need to prove yourself to anyone. If you have fun mapping or creating projects, then I say go do it anyway. I refuse to see you as mediocre. I can't really speak as far as 8BDM projects go (since I am guilty of never going anywhere beyond Anything Goes and thus I am
totally unaware of plenty of stuff that has to do with the game), but I always loved reading your writing and your roleplaying is absolutely fantastic.
I like to think that I don't hurt Cutstuff's well-being by staying here, but I'm almost certain that I don't help it, and that it wouldn't suffer any drastic blow if I was to leave, unlike other members of the community who have shown that they are proficient and useful through their success.
As for myself, I can say for sure that if you left I would indeed miss you. However, once again, you don't really need to prove yourself to anyone. I'm positive people here enjoy your company.
I'm unimportant and unskilled
I highly disagree. I'd say you are skilled (especially in the writing field) and that you do hold importance to a number of people around here.
I'm sorry if my advice isn't as helpful (I haven't written advice for a long time and I kinda feel bad for that.), but one thing I know is that you don't give yourself enough credit, Dood. I'm positive your talents will mean something to someone.
I definitely think you're a great person, personally.
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