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Anything Goes / Re: General Offtopic Discussion
« on: May 20, 2014, 08:50:34 PM »
I'm so glad to hear so many of you are doing so well!
Alright, so I guess I'm going to get down to the nitty-gritty of my own tale now. Mind you, I can be a bit... wordy, so I might wall of text you guys here. Well, it'll probably only be a paragraph or so, honestly.
So, I first joined in... October 2010, it appears. Around that time, the game had just come out. A group of really good friends invited me to playing the Demo with them a few months prior. Being a massive Megaman fan, and the fact that I've completed Doom several times... well, to be brief, I was obsessed. I checked the Cutstuff blog every couple days to see when the game would come out. When it finally did, I hopped onto the servers, and started to play. I remember, I was on Toadman's stage for the first time, when a player was talking about these cool new custom skins. I asked them what they were talking about, and they directed me here.
Around this time, I was starting out as a Junior in High School. I had grown very distant from many of my friends, both online and off, and I became very reclusive. I was constantly worried about the future, quite a pessimist, extremely naive, and quite gullible- that's without even mentioning my anger issues. I ended up meeting friends that I still have that year however, but I still remained a quiet and closed off individual. I didn't really change much until senior year. During Senior year, I joined the drama club, as well as the journalism team. Basically, Senior year was looking incredibly promising. By now, I've started to come out of my shell a little, and I actually began to smile, however I still kept much of myself away from others. Around the middle of the year, I ended up getting myself into a really bad situation both in and out of school- stuff that I much rather not elaborate on. I had to work my excuse my language ass off to graduate due to the circumstances, but after everything was said and done, I was truly a different person. That said, I still had one last hurdle before I was allowed to grow up.
After graduating, I began my search for a job. After nearly a year of getting no more than one interview that never went anyway, I considered leaving home to find a job elsewhere. This caused a lot of stuff at home, and became a several month long ordeal. I think this was around the time I left the forum last. After some stuff happened, things calmed down, and I hit a deep depression for a while. In October of 2013 however, I found a job.
I think now's a good time to say what I've become. Since I first joined, I've become much more bold, outgoing, optimistic, driven, and all around... well, grown. I wouldn't call myself mature. I don't think anybodies ever truly mature. Maturity implies you're done growing, but we never really are. Since I joined, I've lost most of my friends, but in their place, I've gained a few irreplaceable people who earned a place in my heart.
Now then, why am I telling you guys all this? Well... I've been a member since the very first iteration of this game, and I have some really good memories of you guys. One in specific is my match with Shadeguy back in the tournament last year. I remember that being incredibly close, and really really fun. I also remember running around in Knux's stages as he was planning out new additions. I have memories of just about everyone here actually, and I'm actually very fond of them.
That being said... I don't know any of you, and none of you know me. I know some of you attempted to get to know me on Skype, but I never really opened up... and well, I don't know. Recently I've felt like opening up a lot more, and I want to give you guys a chance. I want to get to know everyone! So that's why I've returned, and that's why I'm spillin' my guts here. I figure it'd be a good start, non?
EDIT: Good god, this post is horribly formatted... and here I wanted to be a writer? Haha, I've gotta step my game up!
Alright, so I guess I'm going to get down to the nitty-gritty of my own tale now. Mind you, I can be a bit... wordy, so I might wall of text you guys here. Well, it'll probably only be a paragraph or so, honestly.
So, I first joined in... October 2010, it appears. Around that time, the game had just come out. A group of really good friends invited me to playing the Demo with them a few months prior. Being a massive Megaman fan, and the fact that I've completed Doom several times... well, to be brief, I was obsessed. I checked the Cutstuff blog every couple days to see when the game would come out. When it finally did, I hopped onto the servers, and started to play. I remember, I was on Toadman's stage for the first time, when a player was talking about these cool new custom skins. I asked them what they were talking about, and they directed me here.
Around this time, I was starting out as a Junior in High School. I had grown very distant from many of my friends, both online and off, and I became very reclusive. I was constantly worried about the future, quite a pessimist, extremely naive, and quite gullible- that's without even mentioning my anger issues. I ended up meeting friends that I still have that year however, but I still remained a quiet and closed off individual. I didn't really change much until senior year. During Senior year, I joined the drama club, as well as the journalism team. Basically, Senior year was looking incredibly promising. By now, I've started to come out of my shell a little, and I actually began to smile, however I still kept much of myself away from others. Around the middle of the year, I ended up getting myself into a really bad situation both in and out of school- stuff that I much rather not elaborate on. I had to work my excuse my language ass off to graduate due to the circumstances, but after everything was said and done, I was truly a different person. That said, I still had one last hurdle before I was allowed to grow up.
After graduating, I began my search for a job. After nearly a year of getting no more than one interview that never went anyway, I considered leaving home to find a job elsewhere. This caused a lot of stuff at home, and became a several month long ordeal. I think this was around the time I left the forum last. After some stuff happened, things calmed down, and I hit a deep depression for a while. In October of 2013 however, I found a job.
I think now's a good time to say what I've become. Since I first joined, I've become much more bold, outgoing, optimistic, driven, and all around... well, grown. I wouldn't call myself mature. I don't think anybodies ever truly mature. Maturity implies you're done growing, but we never really are. Since I joined, I've lost most of my friends, but in their place, I've gained a few irreplaceable people who earned a place in my heart.
Now then, why am I telling you guys all this? Well... I've been a member since the very first iteration of this game, and I have some really good memories of you guys. One in specific is my match with Shadeguy back in the tournament last year. I remember that being incredibly close, and really really fun. I also remember running around in Knux's stages as he was planning out new additions. I have memories of just about everyone here actually, and I'm actually very fond of them.
That being said... I don't know any of you, and none of you know me. I know some of you attempted to get to know me on Skype, but I never really opened up... and well, I don't know. Recently I've felt like opening up a lot more, and I want to give you guys a chance. I want to get to know everyone! So that's why I've returned, and that's why I'm spillin' my guts here. I figure it'd be a good start, non?
EDIT: Good god, this post is horribly formatted... and here I wanted to be a writer? Haha, I've gotta step my game up!