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Anything Goes / Re: Cutstuff Sanctuary
« on: October 27, 2016, 08:24:22 PM »
I haven't really been a part of this community in a long time, but I don't really know where else to really go with this.
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I'm stuck in my current life, and my current life is sickening and I have to go by every day trying not to think about the very real threat that it's all gonna come crumbling down any day.
My house has been gradually becoming a hellhole that's falling apart at the seams. Loads and loads and loads of junk everywhere, to the point that 70-80% of the rooms in this house are completely untraversable. Dishes are piled up all over, there's tons of trash on the floor, constantly finding loads of rotten food everywhere. Attempts to fix it up result in things being better for a day or week at the most, as my dad is absolutely unwilling to help and actively seems to be doing things to make it worse. The ceiling is falling apart from years of leakage that we attempted to stop to no avail. The fireplace, which connects into my room, is falling apart and we can't use it cuz it might just catch the house on fire. And last but definitely not least, one of the load bearing walls in the basement is mostly gone, fallen apart over the years. We could fix it but my dad is the one who controls the money and he's too apathetic to make a decision to do anything ever.
I also don't really feel comfortable around the people in my life either, on top of that. I live in an insanely conservative, christian area. Which isn't very nice as a transsexual who is agnostic. I'm very closeted around my parents as they definitely aren't very accepting of either. Although they'd definitely be more accepting than a lot of my other family members who live around here, and basically anyone here. I don't feel safe, or very welcome really. I only have one friend out here, and I don't get to see him in person too much. It just sorta leads to me feeling very alone almost every day.
I need to get out, I feel constantly awful in this environment. But...
I can't really go anywhere or do anything to help with it tho. I can't go out at all without my parents being there. I don't have my license and need my parents around if I want to drive, but they are rarely free for anything like that. While I could theoretically get a job like that, finding and applying for one in this situation is not really a thing that works. And I can't just walk, I live in the country, with no sidewalks to anywhere, and everything is not in walking distance anyways.
There's nothing I can really do from home to get money either tho. Any actual jobs I can do from home, I don't have the qualifications for. It's almost impossible to create things in this environment. The environment actively saps away my will and motivation to get things done. I've definitely been trying to make a game for awhile now, but progress is slow, and mostly happens lately when I am visiting a local friend. And any of these goals is insanely long term, and I have no clue how long I really have honestly.
I sorta reached my limit the other day...
I just sorta realized even more just how bad these living conditions are, and I cannot put it aside anymore in the hope that I can find a way to fix it.
I need an actual solution, not a "possible down the road" solution.
I've been heavily considering trying to raise money somehow...
Using something like gofundme or another option, if there is one
I hate the idea of asking anyone for money, especially without really any sort of thing in return
But I'm getting desperate
I need to do something, but I don't know exactly how do go about this
I've never done anything like this, does anyone know any sort of advice they could possibly give?
I don't know what all sorts of options are available for fundraising like this
And I don't know how to go about doing it effectively at all...
My house has been gradually becoming a hellhole that's falling apart at the seams. Loads and loads and loads of junk everywhere, to the point that 70-80% of the rooms in this house are completely untraversable. Dishes are piled up all over, there's tons of trash on the floor, constantly finding loads of rotten food everywhere. Attempts to fix it up result in things being better for a day or week at the most, as my dad is absolutely unwilling to help and actively seems to be doing things to make it worse. The ceiling is falling apart from years of leakage that we attempted to stop to no avail. The fireplace, which connects into my room, is falling apart and we can't use it cuz it might just catch the house on fire. And last but definitely not least, one of the load bearing walls in the basement is mostly gone, fallen apart over the years. We could fix it but my dad is the one who controls the money and he's too apathetic to make a decision to do anything ever.
I also don't really feel comfortable around the people in my life either, on top of that. I live in an insanely conservative, christian area. Which isn't very nice as a transsexual who is agnostic. I'm very closeted around my parents as they definitely aren't very accepting of either. Although they'd definitely be more accepting than a lot of my other family members who live around here, and basically anyone here. I don't feel safe, or very welcome really. I only have one friend out here, and I don't get to see him in person too much. It just sorta leads to me feeling very alone almost every day.
I need to get out, I feel constantly awful in this environment. But...
I can't really go anywhere or do anything to help with it tho. I can't go out at all without my parents being there. I don't have my license and need my parents around if I want to drive, but they are rarely free for anything like that. While I could theoretically get a job like that, finding and applying for one in this situation is not really a thing that works. And I can't just walk, I live in the country, with no sidewalks to anywhere, and everything is not in walking distance anyways.
There's nothing I can really do from home to get money either tho. Any actual jobs I can do from home, I don't have the qualifications for. It's almost impossible to create things in this environment. The environment actively saps away my will and motivation to get things done. I've definitely been trying to make a game for awhile now, but progress is slow, and mostly happens lately when I am visiting a local friend. And any of these goals is insanely long term, and I have no clue how long I really have honestly.
I sorta reached my limit the other day...
I just sorta realized even more just how bad these living conditions are, and I cannot put it aside anymore in the hope that I can find a way to fix it.
I need an actual solution, not a "possible down the road" solution.
I've been heavily considering trying to raise money somehow...
Using something like gofundme or another option, if there is one
I hate the idea of asking anyone for money, especially without really any sort of thing in return
But I'm getting desperate
I need to do something, but I don't know exactly how do go about this
I've never done anything like this, does anyone know any sort of advice they could possibly give?
I don't know what all sorts of options are available for fundraising like this
And I don't know how to go about doing it effectively at all...
