Cutstuff Sanctuary

[Kapus]

Slow down a bit. Why do people hate you? What happened to make you depressed?

It sounds like you might be dealing with some peer pressure.

[-FiniteZero-]

Sometimes I feel that my strong sense of apathy is the only reason the future doesn't scare the hell out of me. Though sometimes it does anyways.

[Turbodude]

I'm utterly depressed always.  

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IRL, and IG. It's always the same to me.
I do my best and punch my brain to act normal and be liked by people but i just went off the cage and act like a faggot, just like always, i don't wanna hurt anyone, i love them but i aalways end by getting hated by Everyone IRL and IG. I try to hide my sadness to don't make everyone sad, i don't wanna hang out with friends because they're pretty different(COMPLETELY different in all the ways, like, they like other type of food.)Sometimes i just wanna kill myself.

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I can relate heavily with this. I have a hard time going about in school every day because everybody seems like they find what I do funny, or odd. It's not easy to try to make other people happy while trying to be yourself. Quite a few friends I know in person are radically different than me in both personality in interests. One of which in particular is extremely horrible to me and others when he's in a slightly PO'd mood, but of course that's a bit of an extreme case.

Getting back to my point; There is no reason why you should have to feel constricted to make other people happy or to fit in with them. If you feel that way with the crowd you hang out with, both in game and in person, you might want to recede for some time. And that's not a bad thing either, everyone needs a break every once and a while.

Sooner or later, you will find friends and company that appreciate you for you are, it just takes time. There's always light at the end of the tunnel, I know this.

If you feel upset or need someone to talk to, I'm always willing to listen on Skype. My username is ohcrapitssam if you ever feel like chatting, even if it's not in a negative note.

Stay strong, you can do it.

[CDRom11_2007]

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I'm slowly giving up on all that I believe in, pertaining myself, my life, my future, and my experiences. In place, im accepting the fate others choose for me.

Counting that one of those things is the thing that kept me going in the worst of situations, I just don't know anymore...

[Kapus]

Please go into more detail than that!

[Red]

giving up on things isn't really as bad as most people think, sometimes you just need to move on, or need a change

however, giving up on yourself or letting other people decide your fate will just lead to not enjoying what you're doing, or worse, losing your light and not enjoying life

if you don't know anymore, then maybe you need a little bit of time to reflect or think about your situation, whatever it is

that's what i think, anyway, i don't know anything about what you're going through, but i can say is that you should have faith in yourself, i'm sure things will be fine!

[Kage]

Meh, I guess I'll just go ahead an say it. I could always delete it later anyways.

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Though this doesn't apply to my family and very few specific people, sometimes I feel like not many people actually care about me even when they claim they are my friends. I may be friends with certain people for a little while, but it never truly lasts. No matter how many times I may try to start a conversation with people, it always kind of upset me when they either don't try to keep a conversation or they don't ever want to start a conversation with me. This mostly applies to Skype though I guess it is probably my fault that I don't appear online often. Sometimes, I think I just exist on Skype as simply a number for the friend count than an actual friend. I guess this is partly the reason why I rarely come on at Skype at all. While I make sure not to let it bother me so much, sometimes it is hard not to think about it that way.

Even before joining Cutstuff, I've always felt alone in life but maybe this is what it is meant to be. Even if I do leave and people show grief for me, in the end, I'll just be in the back of their minds and they will continue on with their lives like I was never there. Besides, it is not like I really contributed anything to these forums anyways and I am far from a pro at anything. Regardless of all of that, I am still here on Cutstuff and the game servers, and I will probably remain on as long as people don't despise me or something in life doesn't get in the way. You can think of this whatever you want or not, but this is how I feel about being here at times.

[Rui]

I didn't even know you had Skype!!!

I like seeing you around the servers, I mean, I can't say all that much since we haven't talked at all (I do remember the very few times we did talk in-game, though! I remember seeing you during my Lobstacle Course days.)

I'd love to talk with you!!

[SmashTheEchidna]

Kage, you are one of the few people on Cutstuff who I feel the most comfortable hanging out with. You're a fun guy and easy to talk to, and you always keep me on my toes when it comes to 8bdm; I dare say you are my equal in skill. There's a dang good reason I flat out reserved a spot for you on my team in the tourney, and that's all of the above.

I'm pretty sure a lot of people would love to talk to you though! Maybe you should try to open up to others a bit more on Skype or something?

[Kage]

Rui, I'd be honored if I could talk to you more. Even though I haven't talked to you much, you are always friendly and fun to talk to.

Smash, you are definitely one of the few people I never doubted as a friend. You have always been a cool rival and a great friend to me. Whether we are fighting against each other or working together as a tag team, you have always kept my spirits fired up in every battle.

Perhaps you are right Smash, but I have a couple other reasons why I don't go on Skype. One, I always seem to be busy with life and school. I'm worried if I do appear more often on Skype, I won't have time to focus on anything else. Two, I'm worried I'll feel overwhelmed if a bunch of people want to talk to me at once. I may end up disappointing someone if they think I'm ignoring them or something. At least if I don't appear online, people won't hold me to higher expectations to be online. Maybe it is silly to think this way, but this is how I am.

[Ceridran]

Two, I'm worried I'll feel overwhelmed if a bunch of people want to talk to me at once. I may end up disappointing someone if they think I'm ignoring them or something.

This is really rare. More often you'l be starting a conversation than joining one.

[Kapus]

Two, I'm worried I'll feel overwhelmed if a bunch of people want to talk to me at once. I may end up disappointing someone if they think I'm ignoring them or something.

This is really rare. More often you'l be starting a conversation than joining one.

Speak for yourself. I'm invisible 99% of the time on skype for the exact reasons Kage mentioned.


Kage, it's understandable if you want to neglect your skype in hopes of focusing on your work. That's smart, in fact. But if you're feeling lonely and at the same time don't wish to make your appearance very public, then really I can just suggest going out of your way to socialize a bit more. Keep at it. Try to get to know people on a more personal level instead of just being another zandronum player.

Regardless, I do think your lack of public appearance (referring to skype) contributes a bit to this. You used to talk to me quite a bit back in the day, and you introduced me to one of my current favorite games, but you were always offline and I could never tell when you would genuinely be around. On top of that, while you were still a friend, I didn't feel that I could get to know you very personally while it lasted, so I didn't feel a very strong bond aside from being a pal.

[Korby]

do you want to be added to freeman's chat or sommat?
pretty sure dudes there would be fine with you being there

lots of calls go on in there if you care about that sort of thing

[Gumballtoid]

We could add you back to Tengu's chat as well, if you'd like. We played Smash Bros. Brawl online a few times, remember? You were in there back in 2012 but I think you got removed when you didn't show up online for a long while. I'm sure everyone there would be happy to have you.

[Kage]

Perhaps you are right Kapus, maybe I do need to socialize more. But..sometimes it is just kind of difficult for me to socialize if I'm just not that social to begin with. While it may not take effort for someone else to get into a conversation, I always have to think about what I want to say before I can chat. There is even times that I had a hard time coming on to Skype just cause I simply don't know what to talk about.

Regardless, I am sorry for not being online as you may have want me to be. I suppose I can at least try harder to just at least appear online and try again to be a friend to you and other people.

Korby and Gumball, you can add me into those group chats but I'm not for sure if I'll be able to chat as often.