Cutstuff Sanctuary

[Kapus]

it's good to know that we've all got each other's backs here.

I was tastefully withholding any comments about how hugboxy this thread has been as of late (esp the last page or so) but I read this line with some alternative tones and I just lost it man

I can kind of see what you mean, but I also kinda think that's inevitable to some extent when a lot of the people here are growing teens with naturally similar growing teen problems.

There's been some genuine advice and development in this topic still so I think it's all good!

[BiscuitSlash]

Wow, surprised I've managed to completely overlook this thread for 2 years.

Eh, I feel like I could say a few things. First off, I am completely unaware of why I am even still here to post this. I often return here to look at certain threads for updates, but really, is there any point to me still being here? I rarely play MM8BDM anymore due to the lack of populated servers that I want to join, and I'm no longer in any social Skype groups for CutStuff (nearly 2 years ago I left Tengu's chat. To avoid an uproar I won't say why). I really don't know what it compelling me to keep on going to this forum and I really want someone to tell me.

Another thing I want to say is that despite how much of a good time I've had here and how many people I technically have gotten along really well with, I've never actually had a sense of feeling truly welcomed. I've often had the impression that I'm hated on by most people here, yet when I actually think about who and how many fit that category, not a lot of people here really dislike me that much. Maybe it's just a few people standing out and some others that I've never been certain of them being a friend or enemy, but yeah overall, never felt as if I'm a widely liked person around here despite the fact that I've never gone out of my way to deliberately be irritating or hurtful to others.

Maybe it'll be worth rejoining that Skype group that I was part of, but at the same time, I'd probably just get a lot of backlash and consequently making rejoining pointless to begin with.

I've also never confirmed my real life age or real life name. I'm obviously not 7 years old, that's a given, but I've never once said my real age anywhere here. Similar thing goes for my name. Most if not all people here would assume that my real name would be Michael, seeing as my previous online name was Michael712. Truth is, I never at any point said what my real life name is, and I only went by that username for so long because I really like how "My-call-Seh-ven-won-too" sounds (yes, that's how it's pronounced), along with how the name "Michael" and how "712" look when put together. I could go ahead and say both my name and age right now, but for whatever I get minor self amusement by needlessly keeping it a secret, so will stay a secret for awhile longer.

[Red]

i'm kinda in a similar situation since i don't play 8bdm at all and i'm not in any skype groups
but the main reason i keep returning here is probably because I feel too lonely

[Emmanuelf06]

i'm kinda in a similar situation since i don't play 8bdm at all and i'm not in any skype groups
but the main reason i keep returning here is probably because I feel too lonely

It seems, a lot of people are like that in the forum, it's why there is this kind of atmosphere.....
I still dont understand why people seem so anxious here, it's just a forum for a fangame....maybe go outside to find some real friends?

For friends, skype/fb is enough for me, i dont need really it (my friends are more my freedom+videogames (:

[Ivory]

I can understand what that is like. Even when I wasn't doing anything for MM8BDM period, or in any chats other than lurking the vanilla dev chat. I still found myself keeping tabs on this place. But, I'm still an admin here so that should be expected. But, I wasn't really coming here because I enjoyed it, but more because I still feel obligated to fulfill my duty to my old life.

But that is a thing, right? Life always changes, moves on and opens a new chapter upon closure of another.

As for my new direction in life, I've been hanging out with friends and working full time as a car detailer at a Chevrolet/Buick/GMC dealership and I've been enjoying it. Enjoying it a lot more than when I went to college for three years to make websites and manage servers. Even if the pay is crap by comparison, I'm slowly moving my way up the ladder. I still dream about making an original video game, but part of me questions if I will ever find the motivation to go forward with it. For now, I'm fine with doing odds and ends for MM8BDM's new dev team. I don't intend to do much, but V5 is going to be seeing two new DM maps from me + Light Labs work. So that's cool. I'm mostly hyped for Gloome, since making something in my favorite engine would be pretty killer.

What bugs me most however is that some days I feel a strong disconnect from most of the people I used to frequently talk to in my MM8BDM days. Good friends slipping through my fingers like I was trying to keep water cupped in my hands. Yet, I also accept this fact. I've dealt with it countless times before. Some days I just feel like purging my skype list of most of the contacts, but I'm still the admin here, what if someone needs to contact me more personally? What if someone decides to strike up a conversation with me after all this time? Should I really remove someones ability to do that? What if I want to do that? But when I try, maybe we get a small exchange and nothing more.

I wasn't planning on saying all of this, but it is important to remember that no matter what happens in your life, never hold regrets, learn the lessons, and take them with you to the next chapter.

[Emmanuelf06]

I still dont understand why some people who seem to want to be adult, try to push some alone people in the madness (like Freakgamer & Musashi duel in the tchat of TLMS classes).
Seriously guy, you wont win if you act like some people who want "follow us or die", it's really bad, when i say, some people there want to put a communitarianism in this forum, it's not false.
Just ignore the people You don't like instead of troll them because they are alone and nervous, it's not really a way to act like an adult (but maybe because a lot of people are kid there but i think You could do some efforts on it).
Anyway, not like if i care, but i think, it's pretty sad.

[Red]

i want to say two things that won't contribute to anything and are completely unnecessary

1.-if you didn't care you wouldn't post it, much less say names
2.- your posts are poetry

[Emmanuelf06]

Actually, i dont like to be hide or protected behind a group, if i must say the things, i say it directly, without cowardice.

[Red]

then adress them directly instead of posting it in a public post or something

like, the way i "interpret" it, your post is just a personal issue you have with them

[Emmanuelf06]

then adress them directly instead of posting it in a public post or something

like, the way i "interpret" it, your post is just a personal issue you have with them

Well, not really, it just to wake up more than them, because a lot of people act like it..... I dont care but i think it' sad for the megaman community, to see that.

[Orange juice :l]

As he said and has been implied, these people tend to make personal issues an issue with the entire community which just tends to escalate conflicts.

[Emmanuelf06]

As he said and has been implied, these people tend to make personal issues an issue with the entire community which just tends to escalate conflicts.

I dont understand what you mean? Some people talk with their """heart""", i talk with my brain only. (emotion are superficial in debate anyways).

I just try to tell to people to act better with people they dont like, i was trolled since 2012 (because tourney, everything, cheap story) yeah but i never tried to do something wrong, when everyone is against you, you are sad and then you can be nervous and act with an agressive way.....not worse than people who try to push the others away.

Just try to understand people, i dont try to put a flame war or something, just, you need to understand the problem in your side too. The others are not the only one who must understand....

Funny OJ, from a guy who tried to push me away from the community (with Bluebrawl) in the past, i dont care anymore,i just said that because the way Musashi acted with freakgamer, need to stop, we dont need tyran of the morality of some group, there.

[Red]

You say "i don't try to put a flame war or something" but it seems that you're gonna do that eventually if you keep just bringing names out of nowhere like that.

You keep talking about trying to be better with people that did bad things in the past or that one doesn't like, but you don't seem to be able to move on from the past either.

[Emmanuelf06]

I just said an exemple, but in fact, i dont care. x)
Like i said, im not emotional for it....

[Jman]

As he said and has been implied, these people tend to make personal issues an issue with the entire community which just tends to escalate conflicts.

As harsh as it may seem, he's right on this. I won't list any names here, but there are some people (who thankfully at the time are banned), who cannot function in a community setting because of their inability to adjust their behavior despite due criticism. A certain someone especially violates this rule, as he has tried to justify his actions through further misbehavior over time, all out of spite for a certain someone and their small group of friends who really didn't do much other than call him out on it.

Also, stonefunk, you can do the whole "I don't care x)" routine all you want, but it's obvious that you really do care since you're the one who always brings up these issues in the first place. This has been getting very irritating lately due to how passive aggressive it is. You can't just say something subject to controversy and pull out with a "lol jk". You have to stick to your points and be ready to explain your reasoning for them.

*EDIT*
While I'm at it, I want to give you a small lesson in rhetoric. Using names and being overly personal in your arguments does not appeal to logic or give credibility to your arguments; it only makes you look flustered and out of control.